succeed in my new work role

I feel like I’m kicking ass…other days I feel like I’m getting my ass kicked.

I’m not sure if this is what I want to do if I have to feel so defeated half the time.

but it was better in October. I’m not sure why.

I got a raise in August, so that’s something at least.

I am exhausted EVERY SINGLE DAY.

and I still feel no more confident than I did the first month. I have been doing this type of job for over 20 years and I have never felt so unsure in my life. It kind of sucks. I really really hope that I start feeling more confident and soon!!!

Some days aren’t so bad and others are just rough. Today wasn’t too bad. Till about 4:00. Then it took a bad turn. I still felt like I was doing a good job but its alot of work so the last hour was non-stop and I thought I was going to have to stay to finish what I was doing when he came out and told me it could wait till tomorrow.