Work on my Secret Goal

But, I think that I have the most success when I’m not thinking/worrying about it. So, when people mention it… I start to think about it again. And now I’m starting to worry that it’s a problem again… Although, it really isn’t.

It’s not that I ever stopped working towards this goal, I’ve just kind of put it on the back burner with all the stuff that’s been going on. But the stuff is over, and it’s time to pick up where I left off.

The reason I want to try this again so urgently, is because of another goal I have recently decided to do. (Are you {curseword} kidding me?) In which I’m trying to set my life back on track. And this goal will definitely be the start to doing that.

I need to find some techniques that will keep me motivated, and then I need to find some tricks or something that will help me in the long run. But overall, I just need to DO IT.
Maybe even keep a journal, because we all know how well those work out… x_x

Wish me luck~! =D

I think I may just become comfortable with myself. So yeah, I’m going to sort of keep this goal, but mix it up a bit and change the way I view it. <3

But I’m slowly starting to become more comfortable with it. So I might not even have to finish.

I wish I could say why I want to accomplish this, but that would ruin the whole secret part about it. It involves my friends… and that’s all I’m going to say.
So, because I remembered why I want to complete this, and I know that it isn’t a complete waste of time, I am definitely NOT giving up on it.
Still I also understand that it is definitely NOT a necessity.

So… apparently this whole time I have slowly been accomplishing my secret goal.
I don’t understand. But I guess I’m supposed to be happy…
I’m really not. It kind of disappoints me that I didn’t even realize it…
Not to mention, now that I got to thinking about it… why do I really want to do it anyway?
So, I guess it’s going great! Though, I’m honestly considering giving up, because it’s not really a necessity.

Going horribly…

I totally did something to benefit my secret goal!! Go me!!

It’s going fairly well right now, I have to admit, it’s easier than I would have ever thought it would be.
Yay me for actually trying!
xD