decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I’ve taken a complete turn as far as what I believe my purpose in life is. I have decided most definitely upon becoming a psychiatrist. Business just wasn’t my bag.

I was almost completely sure of what I wanted to do. I felt pretty amazing about it, too. But, then I actually sit down and write out what it will actually take to make what I want to do a possiblity. Right now, it feels almost impossible that I’ll ever move to England or have anything to do with the tea industry.
I have to decide what’s going to come first. Do I want to have a tea business and move to England later on? Or do I want to move to England and start my tea business? I imagine the British would get mighty offended if an American came in starting a tea company. lol
This is a tough decision but at least I have some idea of where I’m going. Until recently, I had no idea what I wanted to do with myself. By discovering what I’m truly passionate about, I feel I’m a step ahead of other people my age because most 20 year olds are as I was before: completely clueless.

I found the book about tea that I bought a long time ago. I read half of it then put it down because I can never finish a book (rolls eyes) Anyways, I am going to refresh my memory. I know theres probably plenty I’m forgotten.
Anyways, this is a small step towards making tea the biggest thing in my life and it’s exciting for me because it is another step towards what I want to spend my life working with.

This week..I gotta focus on figuring out EXACTLY what I am going to do to reach my goals. It’s going to be difficult but this is the first step to going anywhere.

I’m trying so hard to decide what I have to do in order to get to where I’m wanting to be. I know what I want to do but I don’t know how to get there and I’m not 100% sure how I’m going to do what I’m wanting to do.

I believe I’ve found what I want to do with life. I want a career dealing with tea. Importing, blending, ANYTHING concerning tea. Tea is the only thing that’s stuck with me through the years (of course, Wicca has as well, but I can’t make a career out of Wicca. It’s purely spiritual for me) and this just feels natural for me. This feels right. But I must do more thinking.