talk to my family more

My family doesnt even know who I am. I have no connection with them. I never talk to them, And they all worry about me beacuae the way I look. Thye think Im into drugs, and having sex. My mom has disowned me, and I want to get a realationship back with her but she wont give me the time of her day…
Family is a thing I cherish. The little family that I have is very important to me, And only one of them is actually my real family member ( My Father) The others are jsut realy close friends but I look at them as my family cause I dont realy have one. I just dont know how to make relationship with my family again. Im afraid what there gonna think of me. How I dress, Act, And look. Im so scared to go to this years family reunion… Everytime I go no one talks to me realy. They just kinda all ignore me cause im diffrent, The only one I realy talk to is my cousin cause shes like me jsut doesnt look and dress like me, Cause her parents dont let her. Me and her realy have a connection but of course the only family member that likes me and wants to see me and talk to me lives an hour and a half away.. Hmm I guess I will try my hardest at the family reunion to try and make a connection with my family members..Maybe I will write a letter and read it to everyone! =\ I just dont wanna start crying in front of everyone >.> Hmm Well its comming up soon so i guess I should get writing!