I don’t know how you suddenly feel good about yourself when your body is out of control with PCOS, and you keep gaining weight.
I don’t know how you feel good about yourself when society is pretty much telling you you’re hideous and a joke and there is something so wrong with you that you mustn’t be seen in public.
Maybe I should try EFT for this.
I’m seeing a counselor, but sometimes her words ring hollow when SHE was able to get a gastric bypass, and now has her life back. My insurance has a written exclusion for gastric bypass, even though my endocrinologist recommends it. The insurance company apparently thinks that fat people are stupid and lazy and just need to be told to eat a carrot stick and run around the block. And if they can’t lose weight, they deserve to die.
I’ve tried everything, and failed again and again. The only thing I lost any weight on was 800-900 cal. per day (starvation level) and 2 hrs of exercise daily. I challenge ANYBODY to keep that up long-term. I did it for 2 years! But the stress of dieting really screwed me up. Yet I only ever got down to a size 12 and people told me “great job, KEEP IT UP”.
I felt HORRIBLE.
Now I’m big, and I feel horrible again.
No new medications are coming down the pike anytime soon.
I keep exercising and watching what I eat, but my weight keeps creeping up.
My insulin and my cortisol are both elevated.
Ugh, I’m blathering. Maybe I’ll edit this later.
I basically think I’m a nice person, and I tend to have confidence UNTIL I leave my house and have to go out in public. That’s when I’m reminded I’m a piece of crap and I’m supposed to feel bad about myself.
