lose 10 kg

I probably should make another goal instead, “lose 5 kg”, which is not so intimidating.
After the holidays I probably have put on a kilo instead of reducing my weight. I thing I weigh about the same now as when I started on this goal.
I have been a good girl in other respects, but for the time being I am utterly confused when it comes to dieting and what is healthy and not.
I feel that it would really be good for me to weight 5 or 10 kilo less, but should I eat fruit or not? Grains or not? Milk or not? Soy or not? And I absolutely do not want to eat meat of any kind. I used to eat mostly raw food, now I eat some cooked food too. I wish somebody could tell my what would be the perfect diet for me.
I even bought a chocolate today. And ate it.

OMG! What happened to this goal! I think there has been to much stress in my life lately, and I can not manage to focus on everything at the same time. This morning I weighed more than ever before,except when I was pregnant. How could this happen so fast?
I have had some weeks with back pain when I was quite inactive, and then there has been a lot of snow, so I did not walk so much for the next weeks, but still…
I immediately decided to refocus. Today I walked both to and from work (1 hour altogether), used the stairs instead of the lift and logged my food at myfitnesspal.com. If I manage to keep this calory level (not very high), the web-site promises me that I will weigh 3 kilo less in 5 weeks.

Cake at work (somebody had birthday) – I did not manage to resist the ecological carrot cupake.
And two pieces of bread with butter (unresistable ecological bread) served with the soup we got at the meeting.
I feel like a failure – only yesterday did look at my weight and saw that it had gone up instead of down.
What is the best way to lose some weight and stay fit and healthy?

I should not weigh myself every day. Suddenly I weighed 1 kilo more than yesterday, I know it is stupid to be disappointed, when I know that I have been taking care and eating the right kind of food.

Felt heavy after Christmas – it was not only a feeling, it was a reality. Today I was back at the same weight as I had before Christmas – that was a relief. :)

I managed to keep within my allowed calory budget. There are even some calories left for a little treat in the evening. A piece of dark chocolate, maybe. :)

I know that I have set as one of my goals to lose 10 kg, and that could maybe be a good long time goal. But I feel like setting a goal for 2012 that I know that I will be able to make, so maybe I should let my goal for 2012 be to lose 5 kg?

OK it’s Christmas – and I love food. I have been weak, eaten chocolate, cheese, cakes, sweetened yougurt and other things that I normally eat very little of – and I totally enjoyed it. What I do not enjoy is the feeling in my body of being a bit heavy and full, and my weight, which had startet to move downwards is back to where I started.

I hope it will be easier to get into a good routine when the holiday is over and I get back to work again. When staying home there is both time to eat and availablilty of food all day. I could really use some encouragement!

The weather was nice, so I walked to and from work – hopefully that compensated for the extra calories i got, when I had dinner at a restaurant…

Maybe I should not record how much I weigh tomorrow, but wait a couple of days more. It is so depressing if the weight goes up instead of down.

Today I continued to record my food at MyFitnessPal.com. As I walked home from work, I could record that as 30 minutes of activity, which gave me a quota of additional calories (without any exercise my quota is 1290 calories, which is not very much, I think). The result was that I actually used less calories than my quota today – that almost never happened before.

I really love the tram ride to work in the morning, when I can read my book and drink a soya latte. But maybe it would be even better if I walked 30 minutes instead. I went to the library today and borrowed audiobooks, so I can have entertainment while walking to work. If the weather is not too bad tomorrow, I will walk to my work. I can reward myself by buying a soya latte when I reach the office – I actually save quite a lot of money if I buy the coffe there instead of near my home.

This could not be better – saving money by not taking the tram, saving calories by walking instead of sitting at the tram and saving money because I buy my coffee at a lower price.
I just hope it will not rain tomorrow!