get over her

This time I mean it!
I want Kids, I want to be a mom. She doesn’t- her only son is 12 and she is finished. I said we could just have an in home daycare, she doesn’t want this either. We just want different things. We are different people.

No other way to say it…

WASTED TIME by: Me’Shell NdegéOcello
You rarely notice but I hang on your every word
Everything you say
You are much too busy to notice me
You turn and walk away
Into another’s arms hopeless ashamed
I wish I could hold you that way
Brokenhearted I dream for you to notice me

Wasted time on loving you wasted time
Wasted time on someone
Who won’t love you as much as I
As much as I as much as I as much as I

In my fantasy you are asleep beside me
I feel you breathe
If only I could be there for you
The one that you make love to

Wasted time on loving you wasted time
Wasted time on someone
Who won’t love you as much as I
As much as I as much as I as much as I

I’ve been in love with Kansas since October 2006. We live in two different states but far too close to have only met in person once (Nov 2006). Its nothing physical but I love everything about her. I can not count the times I have proposed (and meant it!!!) I wanted to give up Africa, I wanted to give up everything, just to make her mine. But she’s never been real with me. Never told me that she loved me. She doesn’t deserve me. I always say I’m moving on. That this is nothing and there is no reason it should occupy so much of my time… and then she calls—-