list one thing every day that was positive

this one

I have not posted on this goal in a while, so here goes . . .

1. Watching the surprisingly charming and funny movie “Stranger Than Fiction” with my hubby this weekend.
2. Getting my refrigerator and freezer cleaned out over the weekend. For some reason, I enjoyed doing it, and the fridge looks great.
3. Hearing my hubby laugh as he watched a comedy on TV. He has a great laugh.

lock doors, close the garage, and so on.

This past month, I have been seeing a spider that has taken up residence in the plastic casing that surrounds my garage-door button. There is an opening at the bottom, so the spider can take shelter when she wants.

The spider is never visible during the day, but every evening when I close the garage door, she is there, hanging out on her web. She used to scurry for the shelter of the plastic when she saw my big finger coming to press the button. Now, she just sits tight, realizing I won’t bother her.

She trusts me not to squish her, and I trust her not to leap onto my finger and inject some little-known toxin for which there is no antidote.

Interspecies trust. It makes my day.

hubby and I were on the porch. I was sweeping away some cobwebs and I was about to sweep what I thought was part of a brown leaf from the bottom of the window, but I bent down to look first.

Under the window was a perfect baby lizard, no more than an inch and a half long from nose to tail. I could not resist picking him up and putting him in Nick’s hand. The little lizard went from one of our hands to the other for a while, and then I put him back under the window where I had found him.

He was incredibly beautiful and incredibly tiny. He made my day!

always a positive, in my book.

But I was sitting watching TV with hubby when I started having little chest pains. I figured it was either my (usually symptomless) mitral valve prolapse acting up or I was having an anxiety attack.

However, I naturally thought OMG, what if it is a heart attack? What if I have to call an ambulance? What will I do with hubby?

I forced myself to calmly answer those questions, then I took a Goody’s Headache Powder (for the aspirin in it), and forced myself to sit back, close my eyes, and hold hubby’s hand. I actually fell asleep, so I knew it was not heart attack.

But, anxiety attacks rear their ugly heads once again in my life after years and years of absence. I don’t wonder. I am in a constant state of playing catchup and being behind on everything, and that is just not a way I am comfortable living. It’s better, though, and getting better every day, so that is a positive. If I have an anxiety attack or two, I can hardly blame my poor body for reacting to all the stress I am going through. So I will just chill and break the cycle.

This is a positive. I recognize the problem for what it is, so I can deal with it.

called last night. It was past 9, and I was already lying down, half asleep. She said, “My hubby just looked at the list and saw that it was your month to mow the entrance.” (We each take a month in our small subdivision.)

I was ready to say, “Sorry, I just have not called the person who usually does it for me . . . I’ll get it done before the end of the month,” when she continued . . . “and he said, ‘They should not have to worry about that; I will do it.’”

I said, “How sweet, but no need,” and she said, “He has already done it.” She continued that she was going to bring us food today.

People are just beyond nice sometimes.

I watched the space shuttle launch. I love the space program. I think we should send men and women into space, build space stations, and explore with the Hubble Space Telescope. Space is the only place where we can actually see into the past, watch galaxies form, and see the beginning of the cosmos in distant stars. Space, the final frontier . . . .Woooooo-hoooooooo!

Wednesday, June 28

I thought constructively about the fact that I am falling behind in every area of my life and made a plan that may help me get a few things done.

I actually read for a while in bed, comprehended what I was reading, and enjoyed it. Reading is normally one of my greatest pleasures, but it times of great stress and busyness, I just can’t read.

Thursday, June 29

I found some pillow shams that exactly match a quilt/bedspread that is still in the plastic wrapper because I had no shams to go with it.

I got a little bit of work done on one of my projects this morning.

Monday . . . Was there anything good about Monday? Hmmm, work sucked . . . oh yea! My new porch chairs arrived yesterday, and a friend came over for dinner last night . . . no, a friend brought dinner last night . . . and helped me unpack them. They look just as great as they did on the Target website!

Tuesday . . . Hmmm, work sucked . . . oh yea! My sweet honey had a great speech therapy session today!

Sunday, June 25:

1. I forgot to set the alarm and slept till eleven. I woke up wonderfully rested!
2. A friend of Nick’s who has been out of town came by to have a cup of coffee and visit.
3. Nick’s weekend caregiver brought him a homemade cake when she came by to help me bathe him, dress him, and get him in his chair.

Sunday, June 24

1. I resolved to live the rest of my life as a succulent WILD WOMAN! Hey, that’s enough for any day!