Fall in love

I was falling for him, and it ended. I never, ever want to feel the way i did after the break-up again, and yet thats the risk you take with love. I’m not sure if i was truly in love with him, but i know he was the closest i’ve ever come.

And i know i’m a hopeless romantic. I couldn’t give up on this goal even if i wanted to… so i just have to trust it will happen in time. And next time, it will be for real, and it won’t end in heartache and tears.

stay optimistic :)

and I have no problem looking into his eyes and saying it right back…

so why am I having so much trouble ticking this goal off?

I think too much

Today I got into the elavator with him, while our friends took the stairs. . .the minute the doors closed we started making out frantically, and when they opened again we strolled out like nothing had happened :D

Hes already said he loves me – and i said it back, mostly because I couldnt think what else to say. This is by far the best relationship I’ve ever had, and I do love being with him. . .but love? real love.

I don’t know, maybe i’m overthinking it. Just like everything.

So he finally asked me out on saturday, at the cinema, and of course I said yes

But I still love that the week before he asked me out we spent sending cute texts to each other, with ridiculous amounts of kisses at the end. I love the fact that we can talk for hours on msn without getting bored. I love the way we now hold hands when we walk anywhere. I love the way he makes me laugh. I love the way it all feels so natural and right.

An I especially love the way that I can see myself being able to fall in love with him

I ended it.
I didnt love him, and he had far stronger feelings for me.
That doesn’t make it any easier.

He was sweet, and kind, and smart, and crazy about me, and i just couldnt feel the same way

I feel horrible

I deserve bad things to happen to me

So now I have a boyfriend..
and a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, like it isn’t right.

We have known each other since very early childhood. he wrote me a really beatiful poem last night, telling me hes always loved me, and I didnt feel able to say no

so why the hell aren’t i grateful??

why dont i love him back?

My best friends ex is in love with me

He has been after me for about a month, he keeps asking me out and trying to meet up with. I’ve been trying to find the right way to say no, and last night I did everything the wrong way.

I over reacted to something he did, got mad, then blocked and deleted him from bebo and msn. He’s been in peices since, sending me messages that he loves me and hes sorry and please forgve him via everyone we know.

I feel terrible. He was always sweet to me, he wrote me poetry and sent me songs he thought i’d like, and always wanted to see me. I tried to supress feelings for him because of my best friend and now everythings blown up in my face.

I’m pretty sure that I can’t go out with him, but is there any way to make this right?

My best friends boyfriend told me he often wonders what life would be like if he’d chosen me instead of her. he says he thinks he picked the wrong girl. . .

I hate hime for being such an asshole and talking this way behind her back (not for the first time either)

yet at the same time ive wondered myself. of course i would never touch him, even if they broke up. there are rules

but i feel so confused

‘When its your time, love will track you down like a cruise missile’

I’ve never wanted to believe a statement so badly…

and yet it doesnt quite ring true.