sex

are not necessarily public.

jkd

I’m just about the only person with this goal with any entries. Also, my tags for it are A LOT different….

Hmmmmm.

Funny, the changes that age brings. Or, maybe it’s just all the years in the shrink’s office(s). Dunno. Also dunno if I care.

Just thought it was odd.

Lots ‘o people will answer StorageGump’s intimate questions…lots of people (>300) have this goal, but they don’t talk about it.

Ah well, another place to be an odd duck.

My specialty! The bulk of my goals I’m the only one with them too (19/36).

Quaaaaaaack

jkd

(I need to find a pic of a duck now I guess?)

I gotten woken up early (3 a.m.) by a dream last night. I had this dream that I was me, I hadn’t had all the problems, ptsd, etc. and I was in college. I knew the fellow who is DH, but he was a friend. There was another fellow, who I was mightily attracted to….and I knew (somehow) that I was supposed to marry him. What woke me up was me saying “I just know I’m supposed to marry him. Although it’s odd, he’s never kissed me.”

And my subconscious said, “Hello? You’re married to Barry (DH), and who IS this guy…?” and I woke up.

I’m very, very married. No shit.

I guess I can give up on the erotic dream goal, huh? I’ll never convice myself that it was DH in an erotic dream, and I guess I’ll probably never let myself have one accordingly. (Or, I’ll keep waking up just before it gets good, again.)

Ahhhhh pfoooi!

Maybe I should attack him? Well, not right now, he’s fighting off a cold. It is NOT erotic to feel like hell and get your sleep interrupted.

Hmmmmmmm.

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but it was a success. DH and I had an “encounter” that was better than most. I didn’t end up climbing the walls, in tears, or screaming, and neither of us were frustrated afterward.

I got date raped at 16. I thought I was fine with it, I talked about it, etc. I heard an NPR show about date rape at 36 and all the stuff I’d been suppressing came up. We’ve been dealing with it ever since.

This was the best we’ve done in a long, long time. With a string of these we may have a fun old time well into our old age. Yeah!

jkd

since this is the bulk of my sexual encounters (except for flirting and “chick lit”) this is a real desire of mine.

No pun intended!
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and not need to hide anymore.

It makes me feel extremely female.

More…later.

You think Madonna used that title by accident? Hardly. This is going to be another, if you’ll excuse the expression, blanket goal of mine for things relating to my sexuality.

And, yeah, I just couldn’t resist. You know what they say…sex sells.

::grin::
jkd