Work on my secret project

because my emotions move so fiercely when I do.

This may take longer than I hoped, or maybe it will simply be less dense.

I think the latter is better.

Jen is my friend who encouraged me with my art for the original (Burn the Witch) art show… and then, this year, I helped again… stage managing, performing, displaying my art… she and I have become very close friends and I have been encouraging her, too… our own little microcosm of artists here in Bakersfield.

She says she has barely been able to keep up with herself energetically since V-Day… she said she is still carrying around the audience response since then and is now a changed person and not quite sure what to do with this change. (Makes me laugh because she was so resistant to it!)

She has a variety of illnesses that make her more comfortable in her apartment than out of it, so I went to her home for tea and cookies and conversation and we spoke of a variety of breakthroughs. She has had quite a leap since I started the “On the Edge” series… and I shared with her some of my Secret Project.

As we were talking about it, my whole chest heated up, my upper torso from my hands through my chest and back out again was buzzing. I had to stop talking and breathe into it.

We were both sitting there, crying, humbled and amazed.

Power women.

So if I am not here that much, you’ll know why.

And if I am here a lot, somebody kick me!

on one aspect of this project. We are meeting on Monday at about 6 pm. I feel like we are on a reconnaissance mission of some sorts, which I guess we are, actually.

I left her a voice mail and she called me back, without listening. I said, “I left you this crazy, sorta veiled message because I have this secret goal I am working on and only feel comfortable enlisting the help of people who respect the secrecy of this and will get what the heck I am doing.”

I figure anyone who can howl at wild animals with me can do this with me. Plus, I think on that evening last Fall we started something, put something into motion, that is a part of this birth process.

Very cool.

Shhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

and it seems like it will take longer than I expected, but that could just be the sorta drainy feeling of having full responsibility for my children throughout the day and night during Spring break without access to my project (since we only have one computer these days and I pretty much let them use it when we are home…. )

Still excited, but kinda getting into that “let’s get down to work NOW!” space.