as long as I hovered in not feeling great and put on make-up I felt better.
When I was already feeling pretty much on the bad scale, I wasn’t able to muster up motivation to even put make-up on.
I think I will remake a goal of this for October, because while I was good it worked great. While I was falling too quickly or woke up in a funk, did nothing.
Perhaps October needs to add something about motivation.
I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. I may bring this up with her. Seems silly perhaps, but her insight is helpful.
The way I feel today I might ask her to sit with me silently for a few minutes rather than yackety yackety yackety.
and today, feeling as grouchy as I feel, decided it is time to put some make-up on again and then head off to school.
I have a feeling that as I wear make-up and then walk to school using contemplative prayer as I walk, not only will I be achieving several goals at once, I know I will arrive at school a much happier camper than I am right now.
Or, as Georgia O’Keeffe would say, I will be a much more “interested in life” camper. :-)
At least I am still able to laugh at and with myself.
This morning I felt resistant about taking the time to “doll up” but I did, anyway. When I walked to the bus I felt such a spring in my step and had a blast snapping away at myself, photos will follow later today…and I thought, “Taking a few minutes to put some art on my face really makes a difference, as subtle as the make up is and as subtle as my heart feels… it is all positive.”
I just remembered this is one of the goals I shared with my therapist. I am looking forward to telling her about this tomorrow.
wear make up yesterday. Maybe that is part of why I feel like crap today? It could be a part of it. I went to the open house without make up. There are some drainage problems again, so I didn’t shower, and I didn’t want to bother with any of it.
Interesting how the “not wanting to deal with it” has manifested in this.
is working. I am not sure what part this plays in how much better I am feeling…. all of it, not just the make up thing, but in being agreeably consistent with everything and not letting the small stuff interfere with what I am working to achieve overall.
My eye make up actually even showed up in today’s selfie…along with sweat. It will cool off eventually. It always does.
I thought I looked pretty respectable when I went to a sort of… training thing for Sunday School this year. I am working in the 4-5-6 grade group in “Large Group”... the good thing is I only have to be there once every four weeks or so although the first few weeks I am going to go every week, to get to know the kids and what is going on, what to expect and also to support Emma.
It felt good to have make up on again today although I almost waffled and used the “I don’t have enough time!” excuse.
yesterday was lipstick. Today will be better, I am going to Sunday School teacher’s training. I want to look my best.
in a good way. It can’t believe all the positive attention. I think I am glowing… or something!
includes lovingly taking the make up off my face everyday, too.
My face is so happy. It is getting so much fabulous attention!
but I talked to my therapist about it at my last session. There is something that happens to me when I make a conscious effort to look prettier. I feel prettier.
Not rocket science at all. It isn’t about putting tons of goop on my face, it is mostly taking the time. Katherine and I talked about this yesterday. It is about taking the time to feel positive about the me I am presenting to the world. Now that I have classes and rehearsals, this is even more important.
This is me on my way to rehearsal last night, wearing my just-a-little-make-up look.