be more courageous

I made the request – and now, will wait without attachment for the response.

I am very proud of myself. I am courageous. I am bold.

Marking this goal complete, too – knowing courage is always something I can increase as I make it a daily practice in my life.

To make a request, one I have been procrastinating about for… months? Bordering on years?

Ok, me – 24 hours and then, I will be more courageous.

On your mark…. get set…..

I feel so accomplished – another opening weekend under my belt.

I wasn’t sure people would like this show – “Control Freaks” – and it feels really brave to attempt something like this. I got a great compliment from one of my longest-time-friends in the theatre world. I knew him before I did theatre through poetry open mics.

Anyway, after the show he said, “Julie – this was great, I so appreciate how you pushed the actors to the very limit. You need to direct one of MY shows.”

We were all pushed.

I was so afraid about my sound cue.. my stretching…. But not a soul has said anything about it, so it must be sorta inconspicuous or something… well, maybe not in the moment….

It takes courage to do stuff that pushes, stretches, grabs hold and doesn’t let go. Now, I am looking forward to the next time I get to do it!

My friend, Tim, has asked me to come to his Temple to lead the kids he is directing in some character work. I agreed to do so last weekend. I didn’t know that today, Katherine’s dog Buttercup would get hit by a car and die right in front of me.

Less than an hour before the group was to begin.

I was already fairly numb before this episode happened, so I really wanted to pretend I forgot or something.

Ironically, when I showed up at the Social Hall at Temple Beth El, Tim said, “Oh, hi, I forgot I asked you!”

It took courage to show up. It took courage to do a really good job. I could have gone on a lot longer, too…. but I didn’t. I had to go to “Control Freaks” rehearsal, anyway.

I need to remember to applaud myself for this different sort of courage.

My focus questions for this week include:

“what is the fastest way to a more courageous life?”

I free wrote, as a part of my practice today:

“Hmmm. Require boldness? Create daily dares and challenges. Do the stuff that scares me. Well, what is scaring me?

Making bold requests. For collaboration, etc. So today, all I need to do is make ONE bold request… check in… revisit. Just ONe bold request.

Update my schedule, then… and communicate. Boldly, ofcourse.

Brainstorm possible partners.

Remember – Bold – audacious – wild – courageous. Passion… is not for the faint hearted. I chose this path… we agreed to each other Passion and Me, sitting in a tree… Courage, Boldness, Chutzpah all go together.. .with Love.

Be Bold Today – Affirm:

Today I’m open to experiences which stretch my boldness and courage. God, it would be a privilege to partner with you so that I am becoming right now, more audacious, wild, breathtakingly me.

That feels so good….

I am aiming for boldness this week. I sorta slipped on making requests, it just fell from my radar. Now it’s time to put it back in there… amongst all the other good stuff I am doing.

I find I do better when I say something beyond the “be bolder” by giving myself a direct aim – but right in this moment, knowing what that “be bolder” should be is elusive to me.

I just looked down at the card Jen Raven sent me, I am going to dare to dare. Dare to dare to… what?

Sounds like I have some free writing to do. That usually uncovers whatever is jumping up and down, giddy, below the surface…. that my consciousness feels nervous about uncovering.

Daring to dare, to be bold, to increase my boldness quotient.

(I like that word combo – boldness quotient.)

to my former husband tonight.

I feel powerful. I feel present. I feel bold.

I feel capable. I am grateful.

I asked my relatively new friend, Melinda, if she was available tonight for some “Girl Time”... LOL.

I wrote her and said, “I know you are probably busy”.... which is most likely what people think before they invite ME to do something!!! so now I am waiting for a response.

It feels great and oddly bold.

I will look for other requests to make, because requesting – asking – is something that requires courage. A great way to stretch those courage muscles.

Ok – here we go.

Right now I have decided to stretch my courage I am going to ask for one thing from someone everyday… with the caveat being that ONE thing I ask for has to make me uncomfortable… it has to make me stretch.

And for a bonus, I will see how many times I can ask that day.

I am ready… set… and I am requesting!!

I am going to think of a practical way to exemplify this goal – maybe a goal that proves my courage to me… so my intent for today is to devise one that I can then carry out, tomorrow.

Hooray!