Go to the dentist

I have a back molar that already had a root canal and crown if I recall correctly. Teeth are confusing to me, it’s hard for me to count them with my tongue and tell which is which let alone have to try and remember which tooth got what done and what not – but this I know for sure, the crown and part of the tooth broke off leaving a jagged edge as sharp as glass. To make it even worse, the molar stands alone, without any other teeth-buddies for support (awww, poor molar is just like me :( )and because of this has ‘shifted’ it’s position. It is positioned now like a poised dagger, and this jagged dagger is constantly stabbing my tongue when I eat or talk. My job requires I spend a LOT of time talking on the telephone, and after a long day of talking on the phone the back of my tongue feels like it’s been through a cuisine-art. Not a ‘tooth-ache’ exactly, but painful none the less and getting worse with time. Lately it’s been almost unbearable.

When this began I called the Dental Clinic and they advised me that of all my teeth this one is the most expensive to repair. It being a stand alone molar such as it is I’m not so sure it’s that important, but I think the theory was that it would be a foundation so to speak for a bridge at some point.

I am so sick of dental woes – but this is now a high priority, the pain, iritation and contant distraction from this tooth is just driving me crazy lately. In plain and simple English: it hurts! Wahhhhh…....

So let’s see if I can get this one out of the way. I pray that God helps me; I’ve proved to myself that I can accomplish goals quickly when I want to – I can’t let this overwhelm me.

Here’s to getting some relief – thanks to the support I get here I’ve been able to accomplish things that I’ve not been able to accomplish in years, so you can imagine what a mess things are; this, much like my car goal, has been a thorn in my side for some time – obviously sitting in a new car is a little easier than sitting in a Dentist’s chair but none the less I’ve got to do it – the reward will be no more constant pain I mean dang if that don’t motivate me I’ve got bigger issues.

and have my next appointment on the fourteenth of February. I’m making much more progress than I would have ever guessed possible, and at the rate I’m going I should have partials in and finally be able to smile in front of people. Literally Laugh Out Loud without hiding my mouth with my hand! Even the pain I cried about in earlier posts is gone, amazingly enough the extraction did wonders, apparently some of the pain I was experiencing was transfered somehow; heck I don’t know how it happened since I had pain in all these odd places and only one tooth has been pulled so far, but since that extraction has healed I haven’t had any pain; it’s not always that easy to eat, as I have a snaggly assorted remnant of chompers left to do the work that a full set of teeth once did, but that’s nothing compared to the hell that once was.

Never underestimate the value of modern dentistry. It’s nothing less than miraculous!

What was mildly irratating, became an annoyance, it’s now becoming a painful distraction, and the more painful it becomes the more it becomes the focus of my existence.

I HATE being POOR. What sucks the most of being in the lower econo bracket is healthcare, and especially Dental because there is never adequate coverage or at least there has never been any offered at any of the places I work.

Nothing gets me down more than freakin’ healthcare issues, and this one transcends the borders of being a healthcare issue and goes into other areas like self esteem, fear of Dentists, embarrased to smile, but the hardest of all to take is the PAIN.

So far the pain has been intermittent and even when it’s bad it eventually subsides. At this very moment I have one tear rolling down my cheek and this tooth really hurts bad.

Luckily I’m sitting in the very far back corner of the office and no one can see me; and the pain will pass, but really this is just too much to bare; regardless of how hard it may be I need to go down to the clinic and see if they’ll help me or not. My fear is not helping at all; if they say no they say no; it’s not like waiting is going to better my chances; I need to find out and if they can’t help me then I have to figure out who can. I just can’t deal with this any more; this stupid goal is going to become my top priority pretty soon, and it’s not going to be because I want it to be; it’s going to be because it has to be – God knows I’ve experienced the tooth ache from Hell more than once, and when a toothache becomes the unavoidable focus of your life it’s like Hell on earth.

God help me with this goal too! I need to get this taken care of!!!

my tongue develops another sore spot, which is caused because I have a molar, eroded by decay to form edges and points sharp enough to cut. It’s like having a little switchblade in the back of my jaw. I never realized how the molar teeth and tongue apparantly work together to swallow food, because of this contact they have when I eat, I have developed this reoccuring soreness/pain that is driving me crazy. This is of course in addition to the litany of other dental issues I have. My teeth and gums are just horrible, they’re embarassing and painful. My insurance is crappy and worthless insofar as my needs are concerned. The Dental insurance I get offered is Dental insurance for people who don’t need Dental insurance. It’s ridiculous. I used it a few years ago and left in worse shape than I was and what’s worse is I aquired a debt that still haunts me. The work she did was costly and cosmetic only, so it only lasted for a few months; now I have stubs where my front teeth used to be, the crowns she put on fell off, I was actually better off before I went to see her; she over charged me, made the cosmetic surgery priority instead of the more important restorative work, and to top it all off she sued me after I paid all back but the last fifty dollars. I feel screwed by the world I live in; all I want is to be able to smile without either being in pain or having to hide my face.

I need to talk to them tomorrow.
Please go talk to them tomorrow; go down in person and talk to them. If you don’t make it tomorrow you better go Thursday. No later than Thursday!!

I’m so afraid to go down there and talk to them, it’s a non profit organization that runs it and I was supposed to come right back and start getting work done several months ago; now it’s over six months later and I’m afraid they’re going to turn me down for not coming right back when I said I would. I know that they don’t take kindly to people putting off their work, but I was worried about money so hopefully they’ll understand and still work with me; either way I have to find out; waiting and putting it off isn’t going to make things easier. I don’t understand why everything is so difficult for me.