I wake up sad in an eerie light. It’s overcast outside. I pull the sheets over my head and wish I could fall back asleep. I realize I haven’t talked to Jenna forever, so I call her. She’s happy to hear from me, but mad or sad or disappointed… I can’t make it out. I share the feeling, but I’m confused because we live in the same town. We should be hanging out everyday. We decide to meet at Skyview Lake, a very nostalgic spot for us. We’re talking and then we’re laughing and finally we’re arm in arm lost in each other’s eyes. She’s beautiful with long brown hair and brown eyes and I can smell her purfume. I tell her I love her and she says the same. I’m starring at her and it dawns on me. My eyes swell.
“Casey, what’s wrong?”
“Jenna, I’m sorry but this isn’t real. You died of lymphoma brain cancer three years ago and this is a dream.” I’m all choked up.
She looks at me like I’m crazy and I feel awful for ruining it for her.
“I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything. I just didn’t want to lie to you about it.”
I wake up in loud tears on Cruzer’s couch and wonder if anyone’s heard me. I miss Jenna so much.
