Get down to a size 10/12

Every now and then, i look back over my life and remember all of the dreams and goals i used to have. I try not to let certain things bother me, but i realized that my weight is one thing i have never quite been able to change. I created this goal my freshmen year of college and needless to say its still high on my priority list. Last year i was diagnosed with PCOS after extreme rapid weight gain of about 40lbs. I laugh all the time at my life because when i was a size 16, all i wanted was to be a 12; now at a incredibly disgusting size 20, i just want to be a 16 again. So..im back at it, crash diets, exercise, starvation, anything! Just get this excess weight off of me!

I haven’t really been exercising lately, and I know Im just hurting myself in the long run. I don’t want to spend another year saying that this will be the year I lose weight. I was really expecting to have lost a little weight by now…I guess I still have time, but I’m really angry at myself. I’m busy, but not that busy so there really isn’t any excuse.

i know that still seems kind’ve big, but hey you have to start somewhere