be more romantic

If stress can cause one to lose interest in romance then this is my excuse. Since March of last year my mother was diagnosed with cancer and had surgery, my grandmother died one day before her 93rd birthday, I started a new and complicated job, my husband was diagnosed with a blood clot, my 26 year old cousin died from an overdose of heroin, I started my own business, my father-in-law died unexpectedly on Jan. 4th, my best friend called two weeks later to tell me she has cancer, and a week later my son was robbed and shot. And it’s not over yet. Now my husband and I are weeding though 84 years worth of my father-in-laws memories and are rennovating his home so it can be sold. No wonder I’m not in a romantic mood.

I’m not a romantic person at all… anymore. I used to be when I was in my teens and early 20’s. But a lifetime of dealing with men who scored “0” in the romance department made me stop trying. And now that I’m older and married to a romantic man, I can’t seem to get back to the place I was at 20 years ago.

My husband commented that I wasn’t romantic and does make jokes about it but I’m sure it bothers him. I’m just not that affectionate anymore, and he’s the one paying the price. I’d like to do it for him, but when I’ve tried, it feels “silly”. To accomplish this goal I may need counselling…