lose 10 lbs

3 1/2 lbs this last week. :D

I constantly feel like I’m not doing this diet thing right, and I’m not doing enough. The truth is, I’ve never purposefully lost weight. ever. I got the scale in the bathroom. I wrote in a dry erase marker on the mirror every date until I go to Portland for Thanksgiving. I’m going to weight myself everyday after I shower in the am. I wonder if this is too much, but I think it will keep me conscious of it, and start they day off focused on a good note. I think my problem is I don’t really believe I will succeed at this. I don’t believe I can do it. But I must.

Focusing on the positive… I’ve been drinking more water every day, taking my vitamins daily with lunch, eating more consciously and no burger and fry type fast food. I haven’t had soda. I’ve had two pieces of fruit a day (except today because my peach was bleh.) I think I need to keep up with the planning part. I need to plan my lunches and snacks for work, and prep the night before. Maybe this weekend I’ll make a plan for the whole weeks meals. Hmmm.

was a good day. But, it’s difficult. I’ve got the first-day-motivation thing going for me, but I fear it’s just going to slide away like every other healthy kick I’ve started. It’s amazing how good I am at dieting for one day :D

My boss has decided to jump on the healthy wagon too. We talk about losing weight and getting healthy a lot, but fail to be consistent. But, he let me order lunch today for him (the same as mine) and we even started to get competitive about who could eat the less amount of salad dressing with the salad. He got back with chips to go along with the salads, and quickly through them out in the warehouse trash can that we wouldn’t be tempted to go through! Then this afternoon, he talked me out of eating a piece of candy, and having a banana instead. Oh, what support can do!!

I’m still trying to find a time to do a WW meeting this week. I went shopping this evening for healthy work snacks, and even packed my lunch for tomorrow. I’m thinking my key to success is putting in the effort and planning ahead of time. When I wait, it always ends up that I am too hungry or busy or lazy to make good choices. So far, so good.

I’m getting back on the horse. Well, I never really got on the horse to begin with… so I’m hopping up for the first time.

I just got back from a weekend visit with my Dad in Vegas, and right before I left he pulled me into the laundry room to talk privately. His scale and calendar to track his weight hung on the wall, and he said that we wanted to make a bet. Between just him and me. He said we should see who can lose the most weight before Christmas. I am going back to his house to meet family for the holidays, and then we shall weigh in again to see who won. So, even if it’s 1 lb., who ever loses more will win.

He has struggled with his weight as long as I can remember. I’ve been concerned about his weight for as long as I can remember. He is just under a hundred pounds overweight, and I always have thought that this would be something that would cause his life to end much sooner than it should. And, I’m heavier than I’ve ever been. By a lot. And since I am apparently not very good at motivating on my own, it’s fun to take on a challenge with someone else. It makes it a game.

We wrote out weights on a post-it and stuck it in a cabinet. He then said that we should bet something that is meaningful. Something that motivates us. Just a few minutes before, he was nagging me to pay him back $1,100.00 that I borrowed from him about 5 years ago. So I had an idea. I asked him what he would want me to get him if he won. He said a camcorder. I asked how much it was, and he said about $1,200.00 So I said it I win, my debt is cleared. And if he wins, I buy him a camcorder. Double or nothing. If I win, he doesn’t get his $1,100 back ever. And if he wins, I owe him double- $2,200 that has to be paid back before Christmas 2011. Holy shit, that’s a serious bet. And now I’m motivated.

• Join Weight Watchers again this week. (it’s helpful to track myself on a weekly basis and a simple way to be more conscious.
• Buy a scale
• Brainstorm on my poster board about all the healthy options I like
• Start writing down everything I eat for the month of November
• Cut out soda, only eat whole grains, and focus on lots of lean protein, fish and veggies.
• Research super foods and eat more.
• Plan, plan, plan healthy lunches and snacks for work.

I’m excited. :D Nothing like some serious external motivation like cold, hard cash!!

I’m downloading the Season 1 to Ruby as weight loss inspiration. I’ve wanted to watch the show for a long time, but since I don’t have the Style Network, never seen it.

Watching TV will help me lose weight… right?

I felt so awfully fat today. Like I’m wearing a fat suit, that’s not me, but I lug around. It’s so odd. Perhaps that’s the denial aspect of gaining weight. It sneaks up on you.

But I must be easy on myself. My main priority right now is to do well with my job, and hopefully, finally, get hired in the next couple months. It stressful, and transitional. I’m doing a great job, I think, and hopefully the patience and hard work will pay off soon.

I’m thinking of taking on one healthy lifestyle change a week, and building on it. Baby steps, not just jump into a diet program. I need to change my lifestyle habits, not just do a temporary fix.

Going to relax, and think about things this weekend. And pick one healthy habit to start with next week.

We can dooooooooo it!! :)

SO I went to a meeting last weekend. That’s the good news. I WENT and didn’t give up after a week… the trouble is, I gained .6lbs!! I only ate badly one day and one meal all week… but definitley didn’t exercise.

This week I am doing well exercising, and hoping for a better weigh in on Saturday. Two for two workouts. Today and yesterday, and I’m going to keep on pushing through the week. Not giving up!

So, I’m grumpy about this whole diet thing. I’ve had a good day eating-wise, but I’m grumpy.

This is hard. It’s hard to have self control, it’s hard to not give in to every impulse, it’s hard to not use food to soothe myself, and entertain myself. But, I’m trying be a grown up and be healthier.

• More days eating healthier than not.
• Written down everything I ate, daily.
• Brought my lunch to work 3/5 days.
• Saved a lot of money by not eating out every meal.
• eaten 3-5+ servings of fresh fruits and veg a day.
• Only drank soda once.
• Made an effort to drink more water daily.

But… I’m resisting the urge to quit, and trying to focus on the positive. I’m trying to not be a big, grumpy baby. But that’s how I feel.

Going to a WW meeting bright and early tomorrow, even though I doubt I lost weight. I want to pledge to myself to go every weekend for the short mtg, and weigh-in. It’s sort of a reset for the coming week. It makes a fresh start, and is encouraging to start the week over, and get a chance to try again despite my slips in healthy eating this past week.

Good day today. I’m proud of myself, if I must say so, for getting back on track today. Usually, I screw up and just scrap the whole healthy eating plan. But, I’m sticking to it, even after going off plan totally yesterday.

Coffee.
Yogurt.
More coffee.
Turkey sandwich with an apple.
String cheese.
Fruit strip.
Tangelo.
Lamb Chops. (oooh!)
Asapragus.
Brown rice.
Tea.
Liiiitle trader joes 100 cal chocolate bar.

As long as I don’t get hungry again, I’m set! Must step up the exercise, tho. This week has been really stressful at work so I’m going to cut myself a break on that one. I’m noticing that my fresh fruit and veg intake is very good (averaging 4-5 servings a day), and the lack of processed for is awesome two. This whole weight watcher’s point counting really makes me aware of the fat, fiber, and calorie content of things, and when eating out or processed, those factors just go thru the roof. Weighing in Saturday morning… we shall see what happens!

_{don’t ask me what I ate today, we are going to just act like today never happened, k?}