go back to school

I register on April 13th.Here we go

I’m working towards it,if I dont go back to school this year I’ll never go back

I feel stronger about this than ever,it takes people’s words to wake you up sometimes harsh as they may be.I fear becoming wealthy one day and becoming one of them.School,and nothing else just to prove it to myself and them.I can do anything,I can control it,circumstances dont have to control my life in any way,it doesnt matter that I dont have money,it doesnt matter that I may be tired from working all the time,being up on my feet 9 to 10 hours a day without a break,putting up with their shit.Wake up open your eyes,time is going by,prove it to them,prove it to yourself,give the example inspire,create,be,fullfill your potential,you have come a long way,you can do it,stop the tears,stop the complaining,the excuses are rusted just do what needs to be done and start living.even in the shadows of doubt stand in the corner shining your own light,be that what you want to be,just for yourself and then for others,sacrifice,no time to waste

Just forget it

School is almost back,please dont talk about your new classes.Still need job in order to go back to school.I know what I want know.I’m afraid I wont get any aid because of my school loans.

I got myself into college,living in a living room in Miami..I rode the bus through a tough neighborhood,went to the library and applied at this school thinking I would never get in,I remember the thrill of finding out I would get help,and two scholarships,live on my own..I felt like a new person and I was.I had never been happier,he came along..I didn’t leave it because of him,not because I wanted to feel loved,maybe the old me wanted to be loved for who she had been and not what she could be…I think I can blame him for it sometimes,but I cant..I left school because I was confident that I could come back easily,I miss writing papers at 4 am..I need to go back,because now that i’ve been out there in the real world..I know what I want to do and how to do it..funny how that works..if I had not left school I probably would have no idea about what I wanted to do,this was a blessing in disguise.