be honest

I’ve been out a few times recently with a really nice guy and I’d like us to become more than just friends. I’m trying to be honest with him and not make the same mistakes I have in the past of not sharing how I feel or what I want. It’s not easy, but he hasn’t taken fright and run away which is one of my fears if people really get to know me.

I must stop holding back. It’s not so much that I tell lies (because I do sometimes – who doesn’t?) it’s more about what I don’t say. I tend to keep my thoughts and views bottled up inside and rarely share them with others. I think this is a form of dishonesty that creates a barrier between myself and other people and spoils relationships. The problem is I’m afraid of how people will react if I’m honest in this way, they might not like what I say, or agree with my views and the next (apparently) logical step is that they won’t like me. I’m slowly changing and opening up to people and so far I’ve found no one has rejected me, or left me, or even been mad at me! It’s been quite a revelation!