stay sober

I’ve been sober over 16 months now. I am proud of myself! Although, now that I have been drug free for this amount of time, I am starting to see a pattern within myself that runs about every year or two. I started hitting a depression about 3 1/2 months ago. I started feeling very low, and the thoughts of using entered my brain again. I even was invited over to a girlfriends house, where I knew she would be using that night. In fact, she even whipped out my drug of choice and starting taking hits. She tried to pass to me, and I turned it down and went straight home. I knew that I was putting myself in that situation before I even got to her house. And I admit, that it wasn’t the smartest decision for me to go over there to begin with. However, I wanted to make sure that I could walk away. I wanted to see if I was strong enough to deny the drug and stay committed to my sobriety. Now I know that I can walk away. However, I must confess, I have come to the realization that I must not put myself in that situation to begin with. I have tried to maintain friendships with people I care about, even if I know they aren’t always sober. I still care about them. But I have also realized that it is unrealistic to maintain close friendships with them while my priority is to remain sober. Congrats to me on 16 months, going on 17 months! It is something to keep track of, and to celebrate!

And to those of you who are struggeling with the same- remember- one day at a time! You can remain sober, for life!

8 weeks of a sober lifestyle…its been truely amazing!!!!!! I am never going to revery to revert. I have seen the light….and nothing, absolutely nothing will stop me from remaining in this utopia. I am very happy with myself. No one could tell me, or force me from treating myself so unwisely. I had to see it for myself. And I did! I look and feel amazing! Its a beautiful thing : )

6 weeks and counting

SOBER FREE life, 4 weeks, on July 27th! I am so proud of myself, and I feel 110% better then I ever have! I have dropped weight, look and feel better, I can run continually, and my teeth are soooo much brighter then they have been in a long time. I feel incredible, and totally dig myself!!!!I love it, and I finally realize how sad it was,
to treat myself like that!
I am much better then that- and totally deserve
A LOT better! Go me!

I want to learn a different lifestyle. I don’t want to get high or drink like I used too. June 27, 2009 is my first day of a new start. Its the first day of the rest of my life!

I want to be sober to learn how to improve my life, and put the focus on more positive aspects of life. Since I quit getting high and drinking, everything else in my life has improved 10 fold. My training went from 0 miles a week, to 14 miles a week. My lungs don’t hurt, my teeth and skin look a lot better. I feel better!!!! I look forward to accomplishing much more, BECAUSE I AM SOBER!!