I’ve been sober over 16 months now. I am proud of myself! Although, now that I have been drug free for this amount of time, I am starting to see a pattern within myself that runs about every year or two. I started hitting a depression about 3 1/2 months ago. I started feeling very low, and the thoughts of using entered my brain again. I even was invited over to a girlfriends house, where I knew she would be using that night. In fact, she even whipped out my drug of choice and starting taking hits. She tried to pass to me, and I turned it down and went straight home. I knew that I was putting myself in that situation before I even got to her house. And I admit, that it wasn’t the smartest decision for me to go over there to begin with. However, I wanted to make sure that I could walk away. I wanted to see if I was strong enough to deny the drug and stay committed to my sobriety. Now I know that I can walk away. However, I must confess, I have come to the realization that I must not put myself in that situation to begin with. I have tried to maintain friendships with people I care about, even if I know they aren’t always sober. I still care about them. But I have also realized that it is unrealistic to maintain close friendships with them while my priority is to remain sober. Congrats to me on 16 months, going on 17 months! It is something to keep track of, and to celebrate!
And to those of you who are struggeling with the same- remember- one day at a time! You can remain sober, for life!