learn to speak up when necessary

I met a boy (because isn’t that how all my problems start in life? I meet a boy and my emotions go haywire and all ends in fire and awfulness and me crying on my bathroom floor?). This boy is a firefighter in the US Army and, as luck would have it, I like him an awful lot. I know he likes me too, I’m absolutely sure of it, but what’s happening now is that he’s no longer sure he wants to stay in a relationship, since he’s leaving for Fort Campbell in Kentucky in two weeks. He informed me of this yesterday.
What happened in my last relationship was this; I dated a really wonderful boy for two and half months, then he realized that once he left for college, we’d be seeing a lot less of each other and he ended our relationship based on the situation not being fair to me, and him thinking that he wouldn’t be able to handle the distance. All the while I sat on my couch completely speechless, not trying to save us or fight for us. I’m not about to just roll over and let another relationship get ruined because of distance, I’m really crazy for this new boy and I’m not about to let him give up and move on without me putting up a fight this time. I’m going to tell him how I feel and what I want and that I’m not giving up.
Wish me luck?

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I fail at this.

I have a crippling fear of telling people when they’ve upset or offended me, because I’m terrified of upsetting or offending them in any way. I know it’s ridiculous and it’s really very inconvenient for me to not be able to speak up when I need to, it’s kinda the reason why my last long-term relationship failed.
I made this my New Years resolution too. So far, I think I’m doing pretty well.