love completely

Let your love flow outward through the universe, To its height, its depth, its broad extent, A limitless love, without hatred or enmity. Then as you stand or walk, Sit or lie down, As long as you are awake, Strive for this with a one-pointed mind; Your life will bring heaven to earth. – Sutta Nipata

Very interesting. I think this quote is on the path to loving completely.

anyway?

Seriously. What does love completely mean? I thought when you love there is no halfway loving.

So, what does love completely mean?

that other goal, I guess I shall re-open this one.

Let us see where this one leads me.

I give up on this one too. I don’t even know what this means. I don’t even want to find out. If I learn what it means fine, if I don’t fine as well. I have other more important things to do with my life and my time.

I need to take some time alone this weekend to redefine this.

He text me this:
“My fears get the best of me. I really don’t think I can do it sometime SCARED!”

I’m not afraid anymore.

I need to find someone to do this with.

The more I think about it, the more I think I could do this with the people who are already in my life. My sons, my mom, my dad, my best friends.

Since it seems I won’t be in a romantic type relationship for many years to come, I could start with what I already have. Loving myself first is the key.

10 weeks ago I had the problem with too many guys to choose from. Well, I’ve eliminated 2 for sure. And I’ve been spending more time with 1 in particular. I really like him, but we both go through that I’m afraid now you’re afraid stuff. Him more so than me.

Actually, I’ve gotten pissed because he had trouble choosing me over being alone. But then I had to repent because I went through the same thing with him.

I guess it’s just difficult once you’re heart has been broken before. But we’re both cool.

I love my children completely, but that romantic love thing is going to prove to be a very difficult task. First I have to meet someone I actually like enough to consider loving completely. I don’t think it can happen with just any random person on the street.

In addition to all of that, I have about 4-5 guys who are “trying to get to know” me. What happens when I start to really like one over the others? Do I open myself up to allow me to “love completely”?