Stay sober for 2 months

And I really haven’t been drinking lately. Maybe I’ve just been too busy with other things.

And I didn’t really realize my sobriety till after the fact.

Was teh fail.

I’m still having just as many headaches and sick days As I did before.

It really kinda seems pointless.
Last night I had to explain that I wasn’t going to drink with these folks. This girl was like “Why are you giving it all up” to which I quickly came to the defence… “no no no, i’m not giving anything up, i’m not ‘quitting’ anything. This is only for two months.”

My roommate goes, “two months is a long time, maybe you should yeah not do the harder stuff for two months. but. maybe just leave out the alcohol and caffeine for maybe just one month”

to which her boyfriend interjected “Or you can just ease into it, take it slow maybe only stay sober till midnight every night for 2 months”

Why is sobriety a joke. I mean really. Even I am starting to think that it is. The only thing I’m doing this is because I suspect it to be related to health issues. But i’m no doctor, and honestly. they haven’t gone away. (granted 5 days is maybe not alot) How much is? How much does it take for your body to cleanse? I’ve been drinking a shit-ton of water and actually eating particularly better (though i didn’t eat horribly to begin with either)

You know it would be so much easier if i didn’t think about it as much. It’s just the fact that i’m consciously restricting myself thats so frustrating. Now it has become this task that doesn’t really have an identifiable goal anymore.

fhasjk

You know, I wasn’t about to really commit to not having caffeine either. But then ended up staying away from it .. until tonight..
I had some cola this evening.

I’m not going to beat myself up over it really though.

Interestingly I discovered that two of my friends are doing this same thing. Seems this post holiday behavior is common.

I also (and i’ve said this before) Do not enjoy alcohol. Not at all. But I know why I will drink, because its the only way to feel anything other than baseline, without hassle. Alcohol is standards regulated. I can chose from brands. And I can just go to the store and get what I want.

Anything other than that… Is such a pain in the ass all the way around.

So the deal that I’m pretty sure comes up often, is how to deal with situations that you enjoy, that are closely tied with something like drinking. Like dancing?

Two DJ’s I enjoy were on tonight. And I stopped myself from going because I thought, well if i go, I’ll have one drink. and if i don’t have the first, i wont have the second. Or however that shlitz goes.

This makes me sad and confused.

Yes I know I can go out dancing and not drink. But its squaring me in the face saying. Here is something you enjoy. You have nothing to gain from your discipline.

I don’t have anything against alcohol or substance recreational use.
but lately I’ve just been feeling like shit every day.
Looking back on my frequency of substance or alcohol intoxication, its quite possibly a source of my ill being.

So, after having been drunk last night.
I’m starting today. which is nearly over. lol. Cool!

And want to commit to two months. Get rid of these headaches and just crumminess that I feel.
maybe drink lots of water.

I was thinking of including caffeine in this, but not sure if that is pushing it.