Make more "real" friends

my senior friends stuck with me even though they graduated. I really believe they’ll be my friends for life. other then that I’ve met another group of seniors whom i feel like i can me the real me around. I’ve grown to see some people in my grade are immature, but i love hanging out with them, cause we’re all just little spazzes.

To me, my Real friends don’t bother me with the stupid high school problems we hear about all the time. I love the feeling of the drama freeness. We already deal with crap with people we’re not friends with or whatever. at least we could cheer each other up with stupidity or something that’ll get us laughing.

I don’t need a friend to be sad with me, there are too many people like that at my school, I just really need friends that will laugh with me. And I’ve found them.

bliss.

Bye bye drama, I won’t be seeing you till I get a job!

I met some 12th graders recently. They all are good friends of mine now. I enjoy a lot of time with them, but the problem is, they’re going off to college while I still have three years left of highschool. I mean, sure we’ll see each other on the week ends maybe, and I guess during the summer. It’s going to be awkward with them gone.

I’ve been trying to make my so-so friends a bit more of ‘friends’ so thats fun. I’ve been feeling more social lately, people I thought I would never talk to, talk to me now. I try to spend most of my time hanging out with my friends, instead of moping on the computer and criticizing everything.

So far everything is cool. Even the friends that are usually mean to me are being a lot nicer to me.

It’d be nice to have more friends that are simple and fun and leave the drama next to the door mat.

Maybe I don’t have “real” friends cause I can’t stand people sometimes. I was thinking about that cause my friend was complaining about people suddenly liking The Strokes. Honestly I somewhat agree. but I don’t understand why she cares… no offence to her.

why can’t some people just go by life not complaining?

Look see! that’s complaint right there! this whole post is probably complaining. but why complain about little things… yes yes?

And what’s so romantic about having a hot temper? my guy friend says he has a hot temper and it sounds like he shows it off… and it’s just annoying. you’d think he’d fix it! It’s all like… oh wow! Your angsty! That makes you cool! and all you do is whine whine whine…. ugh.

I don’t have any real friends anymore. Seriously. I’m now a loner with few aquaintances.

I’m probably gonna lose more friends later cause I’m seriously thinking about making a webcomic and draw about things I hate. Most of this will probably be about “friends”.

It’s probably not my fault that I don’t have a lot of friends.

Cause It’s not my fault that most people suck!

I’m tired of people that lives life dramatically. I’ve already seen movies my whole life. I don’t need people to reinact scenes. Cause a lot of people act like the characters of favorite tv shows. but most of the time it’s a bad character to follows. cause they stay on those morals, and never get wiser. ... blah this is probably confusing, i’m confusing my self… I just think people should join reality, and stop being so damned stubborn.

I’m not exactly Miss I’m-so-social-and-popular-i-can-blow-my-head-off.

I have a few aquaintances and a few friends. I only can think of one true friend. but she doesn’t go to my school anymore.

My friends, have their groups, I have different friends, better yet said as aquiantances, from different groups. Many of the groups, I don’t belong in.

I’m a little too different.

I’m not into the “AZN pride”. I’m too much of a little bit of everything, except asian pride. I like computer things, drawing, anime, video games, rock, oldies, sports, TV, and so on. I guess I like drawing a lot, but the whole artist comunity at school seem to revolve around anime. I like anime but I want to draw syndicated comics too. so the anime group doesn’t accept me. the rock group thinks I’m not “cool” or “rockish” enough, because I don’t listen to some of the things they do not only that I’m not too hard core into only rock, I think they find it embarrassing to be with me because I have so many colors on my clothes they have jeans and black shirts(trust me! I’m not stereo typing but everyone thats a “rocker” is a big jeans and black t-shirt group, it’s crazy). the oldies group… oh wait… What oldies group? video gamers are usually complete anime zombies, sports are filled with punks or anime nerds(biking, archery and skateboarding I mean, not basketball and the other stuff.) and TV, It’s really hard to find a full on ATHF fan, when everyone says family guy is the coolest thing on the friggin’ world.

I’m not shy, I really am not. maybe I’m just a little too mean, or too different for the different groups. I really don’t belong. Thus making it hard to make “real” friends.