be more spontaneous

I sent out an e-vite to all of the people in my department at work for a get together at a near-by restaurant Friday night. Since I have been working here about 4 years now and have never done anything even remotely like this before – I’d say it qualifies as spontaneous, wouldn’t you?

I spontaneously suggested to some friends that we take a trip to Savannah, GA on St. Patrick’s Day weekend. I know it’s in the future and a planned trip, but the idea to go, verbalize the intention, and then actually invite friends was spontaneous. I usually don’t like making the plans because I hate feeling responsible if the people I invite don’t have a good time. Whether it’s technically spontaneous or not – I’m going to take it as progress!

I am really going to have to make an effort to be more spontaneous. It’s just something that doesn’t come very naturally to me. I’m a planner and a list maker. I like to have everything thought out and all the bases covered before I do ANYTHING and it’s really holding me back! Although, last night one of my friends called me as soon as I left work and wanted to see if I could meet her for dinner right then. Normally, I would have told her I’d meet her another night (even though I didn’t have anything to do) but I suppressed the urge to bail out and went and had dinner with her in spite of myself. It’s a step in the right direction but it makes me really sad that it doesn’t feel natural to me to just go eat dinner with a friend I haven’t seen in a long time when it’s a spur of the moment thing and not planned out in advance! Maybe now that I’m aware I have this problem, I can change it.