stop thinking about "him"

Well, i’ve been doing really great. Everytime he call I dont answer the phone. ..ect. It’s been almost 5 months and I haven’t event attempted to pick the phone up. Well, guess what ? The ass came to my house last night . He said how could I throw our relationship away. How could I not answer the phone, like i dont care. That Im childish and need to grow up . I have so much wrong with me and need help. How could I not let him talk to my son (He is NOT the father either)What is so hard about answering the phone. And that he would marry me in a heartbeat, If he thought I truly loved him. SOOOOO I told him I stoped answereing the phone because I was going on with my life, that I cant be in a relationship with someone who still lives with his EX-wife and tells her I dont exsist! I cant be with someone who is swrewing a coke bar-whore. (Another woman he swears that he is only friends with)
SOOOOOOOO here is the funny part … he passed out at my house so…I took a sharpie marker and wrote on the back of his head. I wrote hello, to his EX wife and wrote my name by it . and wrote on his hat. I guess he can’t tell his EX wife that I dont exsist. Heee Hee I guess he was right on one thing. I am childish.

Well phyco is still calling and I’m not answering. And typing this makes me think about him….damn . I must remove this off my 43 things, or this will make me think of him.

Well, i got home from my sons football practice and looked at my callere ID . Yes, he called twice. However he was unable to leave any messages, for my message in box is full. I feel he will be stopping by this weekend. Thank the lord i will be out of town. Now how can I stop thinking about him if he calls once a week . 5yrs is along time …Well, in about 2-3 yrs im moving out of this state. That is when i can start my life…free, no more pain, uncertainity, .... no more HIM

Yes, he is still calling me. Its been a year . I cant get him out of my head . My next plan of action has been no answereing the phone . So now he is leaving messages on the machine. And get this … This low life is trying to get to my 8 year old son. Leaving him a message telling him how much he misses him ect… remember the good time…
Well needless to say, my son doesnt retrieve the messages, But what a D*ck huh? Well, this weekend my message center is now full, so he can call all he wants, but is unable to leave a message. I do miss him, But I know I cant b with him. What a….....NOT A NICE PERSON !!! I just gotta be strong…......... Its hard to let go of the memories .

I figured out that iT is even harder to 4get him i f the a$$ is still calling me . Example last night he called(from his friend cell phone) and told me he love me and want 2 be with me , how can I throw away 5yrs of our relationshIp. I told him 2 stop lieing 2 me and leave me alone. Then called his house and his ex wife and kids have moved back in and they are”trying to work things out” of course she was up set but I told her 2 tell him to “LEAVE ME ALONE AND STOP CALLING ME ” so she was ok with that and she also felt like a fool4 beliving in him….god let me tell u it made me feel STRONG and I truley know I made the right chose…. I AM NOT A CARPET DO NOT WALK ON ME!!!

i have to find a new way to go to work in the morning….The route is I have to drive by his place every morning. And there is NO going around that unless i take an extra 15 minutes to get to work. Then the problem is that i’ll still be think of him cuz, i am taking another route 2 work 2 aviod his place…. I do relize that he is a piece of garbage, but he contuines to be in my head. But its not so much the thoughts of miss him . Its the thoughts of how messed up he is and what he did to me. So, it’s the healing part. I do miss him , but I hate him more than i miss him. I guees that’s a good thing just unhealthy for me to have this hate in me for months