Fall in love

i think my heart is breaking before i even get a chance to really “fall in love.” Just as i was beginning to accept this new ‘love’ .. just as i was getting ready to tell him how i feel and everything… well, i thnik he’s starting to talk to another girl! Great! Of course, it had to happen, to me!

Although i’ve thought I was in love before, i now know that i wasn’t… I think im falling in love right now… but it sucks. I didn’t want it to happen just yet.. I thought I just had a crush on him, but that doesn’t seem to be the case.. because I seriously truly miss him every minute he is away.. and no matter what i do, he is always there for me.. and I’m so afraid that If I take the next step.. and if it doesn’t work out we’ll lose our friendship (which means soooo much to me) and i dont want to risk that.. Why couldn’t we just be best friends??... why does he have to be sooooooo nice and fun and.. & him being so HOT isnt making it any easier on me :P But seriously, I wish it didn’t come so soon.. i wish we could be friends for another year.. to get to know each other better… but he is making it soooooooo hard for me to resist him anymore.. i wish he didn’t make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside .. then again no i don’t * be careful what you wish for *
Aaaahhhhh!!!! I really don’t need this right now.. i dont think i’m ready to start a relationship again.. but I don’t want to wait so long that he will walk away from me…

P.s. I’m currently listening to “Soulmate” by Natasha Bedingfield.. omg omg omg
my brain is going to explode!

who doesn’t long for someone to hold, who knows how to love you, without being told.. Oh somebody tell me why i’m on my own, if there’s a soulmate for everyone?