I have a ton of weird phobias, but I guess that’s just part of anxiety. I’m pretty much afraid of things that I have no control over, that I can’t stop.
The biggest fear I have is fear of humiliation, which normally just brings humiliation. Funny how that works? I really hate being in crowded places; I always think there’s something about me that people are laughing at. I’m afraid of riding rollercoasters and fairground rides, because I’m afraid I’ll get sick and embarrass myself. I hate blacklights and I’m terrified of strobelights/flashing lights because I’m afraid I’ll have a seizure. There’s a chance I’m photosensitive, because I’ve seen a strobelight and I DID feel kind of weird, like I could have had a seizure .. but I didn’t stick around long enough to see, lol.
The selaphobia (fear of flashing lights) is a huge problem for me, especially because I have a friend that’s not so understanding and wants to go cosmic bowling. All these fears also suck because I’m already known as weak. I’m short and stick-thin, and I never feel good.
Things like clowns, heights, being assaulted, snakes .. I really don’t mind them. I’m weird. o_O If I had to be born with a mental illness, why couldn’t it be something that involved feeling invincible? =/ lol
