make more friends

I think I just might have no friends within 1 or 2 years cause all the good people are going :[

I hate my town and I hate everything about it! I wanna move, I hate my town and its the worst town ever. I just want to get out, I’m miserable in my town.

I don’t want to graduate in this town. I don’t want to have high school memories in this town. I don’t want my first boyfriend in this town.

I don’t want to be in this town.

I can’t make friends here.

The only option I have is to:

Plan A) Beg my parents to move out of this town and give them a whole list of reasons
Plan B) Make an effort to make friends
Plan C) Live miserably in my town as I lose friends

PLAN A BEGINS!

I thought I made a new friend. I sat in a new place at lunch with my close friend, my other close friend and this one girl. I wrote about this on another goal “Be more social” So I’ll copy and paste it here. I can’t make more friends if I’m being ignored now. :|

Ever since I sat at table 1, I’ve been ignored a lot.

I sit with 3 other people. I’ll give you a brief description about them, but I won’t use their real names.

• J – J is a close friend of mine. Shes annoying but eh, she cares about me.
• A – A is another friend of mine.
• X – Has the same name as J. I met her through A. I barely know her.

Okay so I sit with these three people at table one. I stopped sitting at table 13 with my other friends cause it was getting over crowded.

This is worse though. When I sit at this table I’m completely ignored. Nobody even notices me when I take a seat. It takes me a few tries to say Hi until I finally get a response. It actually makes me feel bad.

X especially ignores me. Its like she has some weird grudge against me cause when I say hello or something and shes like right there she ignores me. Now that I think about it. Shes such a bitch!

Even A and J ignore me! THEY’RE MY FRIENDS! Why are they IGNORING ME? Ugh. That one day A begged me to sit with her just so I can get ignored.

If I keep getting ignored then I’m going back to table 13 with my other friends if I’m going to be ignored. I’ll see what they do tomorrow. If they still ignore me then screw them.

On Tuesday I’ve talked to 3 new people. Two in social studies and 1 at lunch. In social studies class, we got our seats change and this time, we didn’t get to choose where to sit.

My first though; “Oh no.”

Then I ended up sitting with two people. A guy and girl, who are both pretty talkative and open. This made me feel a bit scared. I slept through most of the class though. The next day, my friend came to school for the first time in a while, and turned out that shes sitting at the table.

We had to do an assignment that involved talking and once I was talking I thought; “Hey, this is pretty easy.”

When I went to lunch, I was heading towards table 13, my usual seat filled with friends. My one friend though asked me to sit with her and another unfamiliar girl. This time I didn’t talk as much but I think I did good.

I haven’t been to school for 2 days [yay] and once I get back I’ll see whether or not I’ll sit at table 13 or the table with me, my friend, and the unfamiliar girl :3

Alright so, I’ll explain this:

I live in a very sucky town, and its horrible. Because of it, people are moving. Theres also new people moving in surprisingly, but I don’t want to be a loner cause all my friends moved… I’m sure not all of them are going to move though. Besides, I don’t see my friends after school anyways, and they don’t care about me that much. I’m not really a best friend to anybody.

Being shy, its a bit hard making friends… Hmmm…

I’m planning on making one new friend by the time Spring break comes along! :D