use my time well

Is it bc I don’t want to grow up? Bc I don’t want the responsibility of being in control of, in charge of, my life?

I clearly have a problem w procrastination. Why? Why do i delay things, relationships, opportunities, everything?

could i change this to not overfilling my plate? To slowing down? Doing one thing at a time and not getting overwhelmed. Not having a to-do list a mile long, but rather just a few things that I get done?

Success sets you free.
Achieving what you want and financial freedom, empowers you. Knowing that you can achieve what you want, not waste hours faffing or relying on the world.
I think I always believed that success had to be part of an overall strategy. In fact, I htink it is more to do with how you move towards getting what you want. How surely and consistently you do that. How you keep your eye on the ball, you goals within sight. How you name and label your goals. Not waiting for some external force.
I think I’ve been waiting, waiting for cues, for permission, for some force amjeur instead of taking matters into my own hands.
I’ve been waiting for someone else to write my destiny. To tell me what it is and take responsibility for it.

This is probably my single most important goal right now. It is the deciding factor in living the life I imagined. I let days, whole days slide by achieving v little, filling my time w faffing. Or the agony of focusing and deciding has consumed me so much that I find it difficult to move forward and do the things i want to or choose to do to get to where I want.
I choose to use my time well.