spend more time with the (true) friends I have

So, I went to visit my best friend this past weekend. Unfortunately it didn’t go quite like I had hoped it would. We have spent a lot of time the past few months talking about the issues he has been having in his life and I have (by choice) let mine slide onto the back burner thinking he needed me more than I needed him. So, going to visit him I was kind of hoping maybe I could just spend some time being with him. I don’t even think I really needed to talk much, just be. I know probably sounds silly. Then I got there and part of the issues in his life took over again (a lot by his choice). And I got frustrated. And, I felt as though he was making me feel guilty for wanting to spend time with him (whether he was or not thats how I felt). So, I tried to clarify something to someone which I’m sure made the situation worse. Unfortunately I wasn’t really able to talk to him as clearly as I should have either because once I realized he really wasn’t understanding why I was upset I just shut down. So, I left feeling as though there was a big chunk of our friendship missing that was there when I got there. Almost makes me wish I hadn’t gone if I could get that back because whether I always tell him whats going on or not. . . I need him. He is my best friend. Don’t know why I just poured all of that out here but its been in my head ever since I got home.