stop going on pity dates!

..i managed to arrange another one of these for myself. for god´s sake, why do I put myself into these situations. I was asked out by this guy a week and a half ago, Ive already cancelled on the poor thing twice, and now Im due for a date on wednesday. Really do not want to do this, or I would, if we could just be friends, but I dont think he would apreciate me showing up, having a great (well, hopefully great) date with him and then saying ok thanks shall we be friends? or?

I dont know.. I guess best thing is to just tell him. Why do I have to be such a chicken at these things! arg!

Telling him today though… at some point.. god….

so I fell for it again.. damn..

This really sweet guy asked me out, and I just could not face his puppy eyes and tell him no.. damn. so had a really nice date, great dinner, good chat, but no sexual tension whatsoever.. I know this might sound a bit harsh, but if there is no interest sexually from the beginning, it just doesnt happen for me later on either..

Poor me, now Im struggling with saying no to the cinema evening he proposed for wednesday.. damn..

I should really work on this..

And its all my parents fault..=)

It all started with my mum pointing out guys she knows to me and saying “oh, he’s a nice guy, dont you think?”.. Well, after that frase I KNOW that he is not my type of guy already, but somehow I end up “giving him a chance” and going on a date with “the nice guy” and then having an awkward date full of politeness and a peck on the cheek (or a handshake if it REALLY did not work out) and cursing myself for once again not listening to MY inner voice instead of my mum’s and saying no thank you..

Pity dates are also dates where a guy (usually a shy guy) asks me out and I just cant say no because I think he has been very brave in asking me and I just dont have the heart to say no.

I dont know what is worse actually, saying no immediately or saying yes and knowing subconciously that there will never be a second date even before going on the first one..

I should work on saying no..