I can summarize my search for meaning as find meaning in each weekend:
I really don’t know why, but today I felt like I really didn’t enjoy my weekend.
What happened? I feel like this happens to often.
- Do I feel like I wasn’t productive with my day? (I wanted to cook a lasagna, but it wasn’t a huge priority. I spent 3 hours on the computer. I took a 2 hour nap today.)
- What can I do to feel like I have more meaning? I really don’t like watching t.v., but I can spend HOURS on the internet. Not good. Why? Isn’t that an addiction?
I feel like I struggle because I want to check things off my to-do lists, yet I find it so easy to be lazy. We don’t have kids – so I KNOW that life could be busier.
WHAT TO DO?! ugh.