not let the little things in life bring me down

it is sometimes difficult to be optimistic. it is much easier to be grumpy and we want to take the easier road. but that road is as well not so great neither for you, nor for the peope around you.
i choose to work every day with my inner self to not be grumpy. it doesn’t work 100 percent now as i cannot change in a day. but i put in effort and i try.
my next goal is to work on laws of attraction now – attract great things to my life. grumpiness will onlyy attract more grumpiness. not want that!

i gained weight and i am still feeling okay!!!
i was happy diving was cancelled and spent a great time with myself last night.
i am starting to remotivate myself at work.
i haven’t been on a downer for a while now (pms is not inclusive).
think i am achieving this goal quite well.

my mum annoys me about the dog. every time i look where to place him for a weekend she starts giving out that the dog is only a problem and that i should give him away. same happens when my mad lygis damages something (he hates when i come in after a drink and tends to eat something as a revenge). i need to never tell her no more.
she got my sis a new puppy as well and now is comparing the little one with my dog and always saying that their dog is much more intelligent even though it’s only 1,5 months old and mine is over a year at this stage.
it really is hard not to let her bring me down because it kind of hurts. she has no idea what it means to live alone. it’s very sad. lygis is my best company even though i ain’t such a great owner as i travel a lot and need to ask my friends / mum look after him quite often.
think this counts as a big problem and i am allowed to be down about it. :(

i got some dog i tell you!
everytime i go out for a drink he punishes me.
he has eaten 2 mobile phones.
he has eaten the blanket so many times i don’t even count it no more.
he has eaten shoes, slippers, sandals.
he has eaten books and pillows.

i came home on fri night with some wine and beer in me again. and guess what? i woke up to find my favourite sandals killed by the beast. i really got pissed off, he got beaten with the killed sandals in the face and had to sleep alone in his corner.

i couldn’t sleep for a while afterwards thinking of how much did i like the sandals. and thinking of the fact that he has reduced my shoe collection severely by now (not 1 pair left untouched but some of the shoes still wearable).

then i just started thinking different. what is a pair of shoes? it’s nothing. why worry. why be nervous. of course i need to train the bad dog to behave but why worry about some sandals? it’s not worth it.

it was the same with my argument with my sister on sat. i just thought it was worthless. so i rang her yesterday. i wasn’t feeling great but the fact i rang her calmed her down and we started tlking again.

i think i’m learning to not let the little things get me down. i like it even though it’sd still tough. especially with people that are close. i tend to judge them too critical.

bit by bit. still giving some time to see how it goes:)

it all normally happens at once:

my shoes start hurting my feet
the hair are all over the shop
the boss comes in in a horrible mood
the clients give out about something really unsignifficant
the third parties not being able to tell me what exactly they need
the dog eats my socks
my car doesn’t turn on when it rains outside
the laptop update starts in the middle of a film and wants me to restart the computer

i promise to make sure these little things don’t bring me down next time they all happen at oince again