post poetry

Oh my God!
I lost my temper and now everything is a mess
I feel like such a jerk
A heartless jerk
I wish I could take back the horrid words I said
I didn’t mean them
I no I said that I hated you
I no I said that you didn’t matter
But I didn’t mean it
I was so angry at you
I just want you to know that I care about you
No matter how many names you call me
Times you hit me
Embarrass me
Tell me you don’t care
I love you
I always will
I don’t want you to go
I’ll live with your mood swings
Your violent outburst
You hurtful words
I’ll deal with it
I want to take all the things I’ve said back
I want you to stay here with me
I want to cry and tell you that I love you
I want to fall to your feet and tell you that I’m sorry
I love you
I cant believe I said those things
I cant believe I was so cold to another human being
I feel as low as low can be
But after gone through so much with you
After you being the cause of all my problems
I was so angry
I blamed you
I blamed God
I’m ashamed of myself
I still love you
Going away will help you
It wont help me though
I’ll think about you
Every time we go out to eat
Every time we go to a movie
Every time we celebrate a birthday
Because those are suppose to be family things
And it wont be a family thing if your not there
You’re my sister and I think your perfect just the way you are
Never change
I love you

The pain that can’t be seen by others is the worst kind of pain that there is.
The pain that hides beneath my skin
The pain in my heart heart
Invisible pain.
The pain that hides behind my fake smile.
The pain that is only shown to myself.
The pain that makes me stay up all night crying
Invisible pain.
No one asks questions.
No one doubts that I’m happy.
No one can see what I’m are feeling on the inside.
Invisible pain.
The pain that makes me feel numb.
The pain that makes me want to hurt myself in order to feel something other then sadness.
The pain that my friends don’t know about.
Invisible pain.
The pain unseen by the people around me.
The pain that is tearing me apart inside.
The pain slowly torturing me evert hour of every day.
Invisible pain.
I put on a smile every morning and pretend everythings ok.
Hopeing no one will see what I accually feel.
Hopeing the pain will go away by itself.
Invisisble pain.
Suns rise and set.
Moons grow and fade.
Leaves change and blow away.
But I stay the same hert, depressed girl that I have been all alonge. .
Invisible pain.
The pain that doesnt rise or set
grow or fade
change and blow away.
I sits inside and herts.
Invisible pain.
Waiting for someone to notice my unhappiness.
Someone to tare down the barriors.
Someone that will let me cry on there shoulder and not judge.
Invisible pain.
So untill I find that person.
I’ll sit and hert.
and feel sadness.
and search my soal for a reason to live.
Invisible pain.