practice patience

The new boy is especially good with origami, he’s a teacher and used it with his students, I don’t have the patience for origami, but for him I’m going to try, I’ll make a whole host of things!

I know the more exercise I do the faster I will drop this weight, I know the less I eat the faster I will drop the weight, but I have to remember that niether of thise things are truely sustainable, sure I could go out running twice a day, but really I’m probably better to run once a day and so some Wii games than to run twice a day, I don’t want to end this tired and exhausted every single day. I’m on a ~1300cal a day diet, aiming for 1200, but probably not hitting it, still that’s not a lot of calories for energy purposes and with that I am feeling it a bit. The wall….the my body is eating itself just to be able to breath wall… Hitting it is fine, but crashing into it and burning in a pile of ruble is not. Slow and steady, completely sustainable healthy living, not a rapid loss ‘diet’...
Patience Grasshopper…

I like running, I really do, I want to be fit, the program says 3 workouts a week, but I want to do more, make it fast, truthfully I can’t I need to let my body recover between runs. I walk the days I don’t run and I have started eating healthily, but it all needs time….I’m so impatient…

I think this is actually working, if its not i’ve set myself up for a gigantic fall, I can honestly say that prior to any physical action I have never felt like this in a relationship, that is, I have, but I was in a fully commited and physical relationship as opposed to ‘seeing some guy’ although ‘seeing some guy’ for 3 months. He’s O/S at the moment and it sucks. I’m not used to being this girly…fuck shit bollox, I miss him and i’m in this deep…

I’m not a patient person, i’d be lying if i said I was, so, when I started to see a new guy and he suggested ‘taking it slow’ which we all know is usually code for ‘not really interested’ I was stuck, hmmm, take it slow you say? But, thats not fun…
Then I thought, i usually rush in and clearly that doesn’t work of i’d be a married woman by now, and i’m not…hmmmm
I’m taking it at his pace, party because I REALLY like him so i have no choice but also because I am still a bit traditional about who makes the 1st move, and its not me…so i’m definately gettinga good lesson in pateince while actually having a lot of fun, doing super cute stuff you see in movies….lying on the Jetty watching shooting stars, walking on the beach in the rain, my life is a romance novel/chick flick…or fast approaching friends zone…..