Get my ex back

I think this is worth trying….if you truly love your main squeeze you’ll fight to get them back and not let them slp through your fingers….i cant tell you how…the answer should be deep down in your heart..and always follow your conscience…thats what i did.

I am so happy right now. I am so glad I followed my gut and called my bf tonight. I realize that it’s always true to follow what your heart tells you. No matter what all that advice those love experts told me….I still took time to listen to my heart. I prayed for him every night…every night I prayed dying for him to accept me and to trust me and to give me a chance…ive never honestly been so thankful in my entire fing life…ive never been so happy as I am in my whole entire fing life….I’m so glad I didn’t lose him…I was so close to losing him… I just cannot wait until the day I see him…that day I see my bf, I will hold him so tight & never ever let him go again. I’m even happier that he gave me a chance to even talk to him, I’m even happier that he told me he trusts me even more than before now. I swear to I will make this relationship work. I am so happy right now words cannot ever describe these feelings deep down to the pit of my soul. After we finishing talking and when he said give me a call tomorrow…I thought ….you bet your sweet ass I’ll call you tomorrow. When we talked I felt similar to the way I was when we first started talking…nervousness…not knowing the right things to say…being all cute…impressing you just for him to be mine. Butterflies and all. Like I told him before…I don’t wanna give you up and I wont put you down because your special to me. I want this night to last forever. he honestly breathed life into my soul tonight….he made me feel alive again……I just feel bad for the pain that he went through…and that he’s overcoming……I will make sure this doesn’t happen…..I cant wait for the day when I can let free all of my emotions like birds from a cage….ughh i feel so good when i write out my feelings..

well i realize i didnt really do anything wrong…...i was at a party friday night at a hotel with some friends and i got super wasted and some guy kissed me and i felt soooo horrible afterwards because i had a boyfriend…and so the next night my boyfriend took me out to dinner as a late bday present and i was depressed as hell because i felt guilty…and he kept asking what was wrong so i was alll crying and i told him and he flipped and he took it the wong way and he didnt believe thats all that happened, he thinks i let him kiss me…so its all crazy right now..but i called him up tonight and i didnt cry or anything and i stayed strong and just told him “look its either you believe me or not but im sticking to what i told you and i dont understand why are so upset, i realize that i shouldnt be crying because i didnt do anything wrong….and sooo yeah he was still upset but he did understand all the things i was saying…so i told him that im still giving him space but for both of us and soo hes like call me friday and ill think about it…..but i think hes going to stay with me because i gave him a lot of things to think about, and he even told me he doesnt want to let me go because would if im telling him the truth sooo yeh, i’ll find out friday

i feel a bit better…i havent really been crying hard….im understanding what i did wrong and im understanding that he should be mad at me…so im giving him time to cool off and im not gonna talk to him for a while….its just sooooo hard right now, im sooo eager to just pick up the phone and call him…BUT i gotta give him space…i never realized how writting down my feelings on paper, internet, little notecards can make me feel sooo much better…i feel like i emptied out my feelings

i miss my baby so much…..i messed up in a bad way and i am sooo scared he’s not going to want me back….and, it wasnt even my fault at all…and i feel like he’s being unfair….he’s such a doll and he always treated me with respect..he’s the first man to ever show me so much love…he held my heart like it was glass….he made me feel so safe no matter what…..its still early and we just broke up and i really feel lost…im so lost and ive never been so upset and lonely without him…..i really want to give him his space because i know he is upset with me…and i respect that so much….but im scared that we’re done for good…...i just needed someone who can relate to me right now…or help me out