There is a time, and its now. In my life where I must face questions i’ve ignored for so long. I’m so caught up with everything life has brought me. I’ve spent my years maturing thinking about everything and everyone else but myself. I consider myself well educated, but i refuse to admit it, because I am nothing without knowing myself. How can I know what I truely want and need in this life without knowing who I am? I have a sensible heart, always worrying about other people’s actions and reactions that I have had no time to think of my own.
What has set me back is struggles. Speed bumps in life’s highway. My analogies are poor, but its a similiar feeling of driving smoothly only to hit a bump to force speed to slow down. Struggles are different for different people and I have had my share. I was too caught up in understanding and fixing these struggles. They made me upset, slow and cold.
As I said, the time is now for me. The time to set aside the struggles, other people, all of my worries and worry about myself. The first of 43 things I want is this, myself. I am not sad or depressed. I’d say I’m confused. I’m almost scared to figure out myself. I wonder if my heart will still race or if will march to a new beat. Sometimes I wonder why, I’m so full of these endless thoughts, about the way I feel inside that I just want to get it right. I need to figure out a career path, something that suits me, analyze love, and if its real and a slew of other things, but each are something different on their own. Figuring out myself needs to be focused on by itself. Moreover, before I write a book on self discovery, I encourage everyone to take time for themselves and to not forget about themself. Find and accept yourself. Be confident, and if you are having this crisis, know that your not alone, know that most people don’t even think like this, outside the box. Think of it somehow as a gift. Find something to believe in, because if various struggles we face are lifes knives, and we can believe in something, lifes knives are dull. Think about it.
