Transition is both retrospective and embryonic, we reflect back upon the journey life has taken us on with appreciation and reverence, and yet at the same time cast our thoughts onwards to the misted horizons that lie beyond the open seas of the future. As I pack my life into cardboard boxes I am entrusted with a deep seeded gratuity for this life I have led, it has been a culmination of inspiring moments, great accomplishments, exceptional and influential people and experiences that shall forever instil my heart with fond and inspiring memories. Will I come back? That is always a definitive question that knows no definitive answer. Will I be the same person when I come back? The answer to such is indisputable… the woman who returns to this corner of the world in twelve months time will not be the same woman I know today. Life moves on and so must we.
For two years I have led a shell of a life, unsure about the dreams that lie latent in my soul and unable with any sense of certainty to yield myself to commitment or change. I lost myself, I lost my direction, I lost sense of purpose and destiny, I was living a hollowed out existence. Looking through boxes of letters, awards, certificates, prophecies, photos… I realise how much I deviated from destiny but for why and what purpose perhaps I shall never know – it was part of the journey. Perhaps without the slight detour I would never be able to give expressive perspective to the future… perhaps it was not a detour after all but simply part of a bigger picture larger than myself.
What I see around me is just a mirage of the life I thought I might like to have or happened per chance to find myself in… but essentially it’s not me. Simplicity, Beauty, Minimalistic Living, Spontaneity, Creative Freedom, Wilderness, Mountains, Unknown, Impulse, Simple Enjoyment, Exploration, Adventure, Daring feats, New Experiences, Challenge, Life on the Edge – it is the core of who I am, it is what inspires my deepest passions and arouses the greatest inspiration and delight. Life is not without its complications but it should not find its orbit solely around complexity, if it does… perhaps we need to change our orbit.