Do you people know how to guilt me into coming back, or what? Okay! Okay! I’m back. Thank you. I’ve had a really, really rough past two weeks, and sometimes things just get so overwhelming.

((((((((BIG HUGS TO ALL))))))))

I’m sure I don’t deserve your friendship, but thank you for making me feel like I do.

Question for all of you,

and please please answer.

What do you do when someone leaves a nasty reply to one or more of your entries? Does this happen to you? How often does it happen? Does it make a difference if the post is really personal compared to just an ordinary post? Have you ever not posted something because of how someone may reply to it? Has there ever been an entry that someone else made that you just HAD to say something unpleasant to? What do you do when you come across an entry that someone has wrote that you don’t like?

I know that’s a lot of questions, but this is becoming an issue with me… and any any polite feedback would be greatly appreciated.

But when the homepage loaded just now, Livyru was the center star. If only she was still here…

I’ve dropped a bunch of subscribers recently. That doesn’t normally bother me – you are all free to come and go as you please – but I feel that these losses might be because I haven’t exactly been the most interesting or active recently. That has been weighing on my conscience, and I’m sorry to you all.

Truth is the past four months have been a bit tricky for me. I’ve thought about explaining, but I don’t really know how to say it. Another big part is that I like to let the story play itself out, and then share, rather than give a chapter by chapter account of my life, if that makes any sense. I think – I hope – this is just about wrapping up, so that I can gather all the bits together and share with anyone who is so interested.

Also, for anyone who remembers this from oh so long ago… ::sigh:: I truly meant to do it. It just wouldn’t work. I probably needed some sort of software to make it fit. My surprise was a wordsearch that I had designed myself, with all of my(known) subscribers names in it. It looked great on paper, and I thought it was pretty nifty if i do say so myself but I couldn’t get it to materialize comprehensively on the computer. I was going to make a .jpg and post the link, had things worked out. Sorry. ): I had the best of intentions.

I’m here, I just don’t feel like talking much. ):

I’m not going to be around again for a little while. Endure with me, please.

...we return you to your regular programming.

HELP! I NEED MONEY FOR A UNICORN!!!

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Okay, now we return to your regular programming. Sweet, complacent, non confrontational Lauraly, and all that blahblahblah…

I have an announcement. It is imperative that you read this whole thing. It’s mean and it’s cruel but it’s the truth and it’s how I feel. And most importantly, it needs to be said.

Everybody, it seems, has cancer, has had cancer, has someone in their life who has or has had cancer, or has someone who has lost their battle with cancer. I hear people moaning for the cure for cancer, we need the cure for cancer, why isn’t there a cure for cancer? Help donate to so-and-so’s health care. Etcetera.

You are all morons. All of you. You’re stupid and you’re ignorant and you’re… you’re… You’re STUPID! Do you hear me? Do you really think that poisoning your body with chemo is a wise, smart move in a “valiant battle” with cancer? Or that radiation is a good idea? STUPID. Do you think that just because your doctor says so, it means it’s the only way? STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID.

It makes me sick to my stomach to hear about you whining for monetary donations when chemo and radiation are the kiss of death. You know what chemo does? It’s torture and it kills you. It creates more cancer. Why do you think people pray for remission? BECAUSE CHEMO CREATES MORE CANCER. It breaks my heart. How can you believe such lies?

Wow, are you still reading this? I’m surprised. I thought you’d flip me off as a raving lunatic…

THERE IS A “CURE” FOR CANCER. Do you know why you haven’t heard of it? Can you guess? The same reason that your friend/sister/grandfather/neighbor/coworker’s cousin needs donations. BECAUSE IT DOESN’T MAKE MONEY. Do you know how much money chemo makes? And how about when the cancer comes back? How much money does THAT make? Do you REALLY think that doctors, who in short, have sold their soul to the devil that is Big Pharma, do you REALLY REALLY REALLY think that they know better? That a part of them doesn’t drool with greed over your compliance and your ignorance? Health care? Try “sick care”. Do you know why they cover up the truth and tell you that people like me are out of their minds?

But hey, they went to med school and they are the authority. They “know.” Right? Like hell they know. The only thing more disgusting than their greed and lies is how you gobble it up like candy and turn on me for giving a different approach to treating cancer.

For God’s sake, DO SOMETHING. You’re reading this by an internet connection. Do some research! Google “natural cancer cures”. Look up the Gerson Institute. Subscribe to Natural News. Those are treatments I support. Don’t just sit there with your fingers crossed. If you’ve been praying, maybe this is your prayer answered. You want my prayers, you want my money – well I want YOU to THINK. I WANT you healthy. I want you to prevent cancer, not just cry for the “cure”.

There. I’m done. You can all hate me and I’ll watch my subscriber numbers drop, and I’ll have earned myself the reputation as “That freaky Lauraly of 43things” but I can’t stay quiet while this madness rages on around me. Educate yourself while you’re still cancer free. Your life depends on it.

Like I said a bit ago, silent gratitude isn’t much use to anyone. (: So a big, LOUDTHANK YOU! to all of you wonderful people!

Most places I go, I make friends with guys, but I’m overwhelmed by how many women I’ve met through here! Now, I want to stress that I love all the men on here just as much – Creativeheart, Wayne, Chris, and the others I call my friends – but for me, girl friends are just SO rare and special that I am very thankful to have met all of you ladies on here. It’s overwhelming and I feel very blessed.

So thank you all for your wonderful support, wisdom, friendship and company.

I hope that the new year makes your dreams come true and that you all remember that the dark times don’t last forever. I’ll be thinking the very best wishes and thoughts for everybody, and thanks for sticking around while I took a break, too. I love you! (:

(And… I really have been trying to make up that surprise I promised before. I had it all wrote out in a notebook, and now that notebook is missing. Of course. I know it’s been a month, but it WILL turn up. So I haven’t forgotten!)

to let everybody know we’re home, safe and sound. (:

_{And I have something I worked on in the car to show you all. With a bit of luck I’ll have it posted sometime this week. Beware, mine is an evil a delighted-with-myself laugh. Muahahahaha!}