take risks

http://www.43things.com/person/thinkred has a goal that is “Try something new each week” or something to that degree. I think this is a bit of what I meant.

Take Risks.

Try something NEW!

A few years ago I was in a class where I was putting myself out there by just being there (I had a HUGE fear of ticks… by the end of the month I could pick one up and rip it apart.)
At the beginning of this class I made an effort to push myself to do things that I wouldn’t normally WANT to do. I got in the cold water further than I had to -when collecting bugs. I swallowed fear and DOVE. It was great for me.

I wish I could be fearless like that again isn’t an accurate statement. Because I wasn’t fearless. I was scared. But, it was GREAT.

I want to do that again. Live and take risks. Push myslef to do things that make myself uncomfortable, but COULD reap great rewards.

People think I am a total risk taker… I am great at hiding that I totally don’t take risks. It isn’t a risk for me to be loud in public, or talk to some guy—that doesn’t scare me. What scares the hell out of me is being SERIOUS in front of people.

I hate talking in front of groups when I can’t make jokes. I hate people reading my writing—or especially reading my writing from a critical point of view.

I can dance on tables, march up to famous people, flirt with gorgeous guys, but I cannot sing in public. Years of voice lessons and I cannot do it. Sure, I can sing Karaoke… but please don’t play me a song I LOVE to really sing, because you’ll get a rap version.

Very few of my friends have actually heard my voice… I am a chicken…

I need to get over this.