Have a different life by this time next year

The changing process started in August during Ramadan. I don’t know the exact reason, maybe it was the 6 hours working days or because I started driving, but I just felt peace. I didn’t even want to leave from Qatar, but I had to, because the school started in October in Italy. Before that I went to Barcelona to visit my cousing, and we had a fantastic few days there. Then I came to Trieste, and that’s where I found real happiness, probably first time in my life. It’s not that I’ve never been happy, I was, but this is different. I always had something to complain or worry about and now I just don’t have anymore. Also, in the last 5 years while being in Qatar I felt that life is passing by and I just don’t live, I am just surviving. And now here I am, in the north of Italy, living in a beautiful area of the city, on the mountain with sea view, studying in a palace, having wonderful roommates, and an amazing class and an other class in the school with great people too. And even though the school is really hard, we have lots of fun, we talk a lot, we laugh at everything and I am really having the best time of my life. My mind is changing as well, I often feel confused and don’t exactly know what I should do with my future, but I will figure it out eventually. I finally feel comfortable in my skin, feel energetic, healthy phisically and mentally (first time in a decade maybe I have no allergic)and able to appreciate how lucky I am to be here and now.

The goal is done, this really is a life changing experience!

So I finally applied to Italy for Master instead of Denmark. I got accepted, went to see the school in Triest and almost changed my mind – I was little bit afraid of the changes and tried to convince myself not to do – but finally I decided to go. So in October I’m moving to Italy for a while to study. It will be full time and it’s gonna be great I think.

So I have Plan A and B what I would like to do next year:

My first option is to study in Aalborg Universty in Denmark Master in Tourism Management. And I could work in the same time.
If for some reason they won’t accept my application, then I would like to live for a while in Berlin, learn german perfectly, and after start working in Budapest as a tourist guide.
And next summer I’m planning to apply to Orangeways (bus company) as stewardess.
That’s for now, it’s good to write down, even if my plans change sometimes.

“You might think I’m foolish”, but I changed my life-plan again. I’m going back to Doha, and I will search for a new job. But anyway, my life will be different somehow. New job and I feel like it’s a new start there. And the weather is so bad here, that rigt now I don’t mind. But anyway, I think I will leave this goal for one more year, because then my life should be really something completely different. (I would love to be in Denmark and study there, let’s hope it will be succesful!)
Today my husband went for a helth check-up, and the doctor said that he is too stressful, and he should enjoy his life more, and not just concentrate on the future, moreover he should reduce eating so much meet. I’m telling this to him for years, but nothing, and then a doctors comes and he believes him immediately? :) Anyway, I’m happy about this, because I’m good in enjoying life and I have to teach him this. And I1m also good in not eating meet and cooking vegetable dishes.
Oh, right now I can’t wait to go back to Qatar! (I have never thought I will say this, but now I miss our house there, the hot climate, the night walks, shopping in the super market and many more…)

So, I did all that that I mentioned in my previous entry. I resigned from my job, I got my IATA diploma, and my Tourism Management diploma will arrive soon by post.
We bought a flat, which is still under contruction. But the strange thing is, that we decided with my husband, that I1m staying in Hungary. It’s my own country, but I spent most of my adult life abroad, so it’s like a new start for me. The next week I will spend for searching for the ideal job, then hopefully I will have a few interviews, and if everything goes well, I will get a good job and start working very soon. And I have to find a room in Budapest, where I can bring my dog with me. So hopefully my life will get interesting very soon. And I’m happy to stay in my country. There are so many things to do here, so many places to visit around, and in Doha I always had the feeling that life is passing by…
So I have to start everything from zero. I’m a little bit scared, but it’s time to be totally independent.
With my husband we will live in distance relationship for a while, which will be harder, but I think it will be okay. It will be good to “rediscover” myself, and then meet again when we are both more mature.

In the middle of 2008 we are planning to buy a flat in Budapest, so I will be moving back there in May and start searching for the ideal flat. This means I have to resign from my current job and find an other one, but this is not a problem, although I like my job, but there is not much challange in that anymore, so I would like to try something new. Not only employing with air-tickets, I would like to organizing tours or something like that, to become more interesting. I will be finishing my IATA and college by then, so my chances to get a good job will be higher. I hope everything will become true.