ahhh fool.
unfortunately i only get happy or excited whenever i am about to go party or what not..
i dont think thats good.. especially at my age, ha
but i am sure its very common at my age.. ha
yeah it sucks.
friends make me happy… but thats not what i want, i want my family to be the ones making me happy. ya know.
i guess its just my age..
but whatever.
i cant wait to seriously be independent. i mean, i know it will be hard and what not, but i’m not like other people.
so the best thing for me to do at this point in my life is just live in the moment
... and i honestly think that that is my key to ‘leslie’s happiness…
which is really strange for me to admit, cause that is seriously the last thing i would ever admit to anyone… cause i havent actually “done this goal”
but just as i went to type up a entry for this goal cause i realized i havent touched it in a while, and it all just came to me. like a blow to the stomach.
i have always ‘done’ this goal, i just never applied it. and those two are very different for me. phyically, or mentally i have accomplished this formula in my head, worked it all out and figure out exactly what i need to do as a person, but i have never applied it to my daily life and interaction with people.
but wow. thats crazy to me.
i feel some what relieved realizing allll of that.
but thanks for reading, if you even to.
ha
goood day.
