stop spending so much money

whoa.
have not been abiding by this goal in the past month and a half.

i have spent quite a lot of mon’nayyy.

ha. whatevvs.
leslie is having fun.
frugal comes laterr.

HAHAHA

totally have bee splerging like noo other.

spent well over 200$ just this past week.
but i did get new pets, and other things.

i up until that point, i was doing prettty well.

just still need to get this eating out problem under control.
then it should be better.

and i will be starting to work at least 30 hours a week starting next week.
that would be oh so much helpful.

not too excited about that though.

i went to wal mart to look at clothes. thinking that i can buy some there cause its ‘reasonably’ priced and i wont spend too much money.

well i spent more than i wanted.
so i am taking the shoes and 2 of the shirts back.

who knew wal mart had so many different styles of black shirts! ha
i got in over my head.
something i would never thought i would do…

so yeah.
after i return those, i should be good on my budget for this month.

i have been doing really well at this..
on account that i dont have any.. at all..
but i have had the same 35 $ in my wallet for over a week! and i havent deposited my check yet…
so that really good!

i am proud of myself…

but i fear that i am going to start spending a lot of money on gas really soon.. especially since i will be going to school… then i will want to be hanging out with people at all kinds of places….
so thats what i am worried about…

thats all though.

so, truth be told, i dont have that much money left at all. but i have some, and enough for me… i know how to budget. and since i have to quit working for my grandma that one day a week because school, then i wont be having any cash flow at all.

and i am not ok with this.
i can easily go get a job, and go to school and work.
i have been doing it for the past 4 years without a problem.

but heres my true problem-
like i said, the past 4 years i have been almost totally supporting myself, from food to gas and all in between. i went to school 5 days a week, and worked over 60 hours a week, roughly 6 days a week. thats what i needed to do, so i did it, and i enjoyed it. i like working and supporting myself.
but i did choose to take this summer off, almost completely, with no work and just relax and take a break.
now that i am going back to school very soon, my mother is against me getting a job and going to college. they have been trying to give me gas money and ‘some extra’... but i dont use it.
i know they are doing it because they love me and whatever their parenting reasons are.. but they are still in a finacial crisis, and them giving me money sure doesnt make me feel good about it.

i really dont see the point why they are trying to support me now, and not 4 years ago or whatever.
this unfair stuff they do between me and all my sisters is really ridiculous. and i am sick of it.

so as soon as i am ok with school and ahve confidence in myself that i can handle 17 hours or school and 30 (at least) hours of work.. then i am going to do it.

then i will have nothing to worry about when it comes to money at all!

for whatever reason, my parents went to see a financial advisor today. i think thats what it was…
and they decided to change their whole way of handling their money and stuff.
they are getting rid of almost alllll their credit cards.
especially the ones i use.

so i really think that will have a good effect on me.

it will lead me in the right path hopefully…

oh yeah, my dad told me that they are only going to use cash for now on.
no credit cards…

haha i have never seen that last.

but it is for the best now.. so we will have to wait and see.

i made 149$ this month..
wow…

i am really considering applying at hooters…
but i am real embarassed kinda..
theres someone that works there that doesnt like me.. so it kinda makes me on edge too.

i have applied once.. interveiw and all. but i was just a few months too young..

and i think i look wayy better now than i did back then.
so i have confidence in myself that i will possibly get the job if they have positions avaiable.. but its still kinda like…

i dont know…

but thats realllly good money.
my older sister use to work there, so theres an advantage for me too.
but….
i just dont know.
i need to get another job.
like for real.
and i dont know why i am having such trouble finding a good one..

yeah i have been looking at my ‘spending reports’...
and damn..

this girl has been spending tooo much money on shit! literally shit!
in one month.. over 300$ in clothes, over 200$ going out to eat.. and about $103 on average for gas.
thats just to basics!
there all kinds of other little things to!

and as of now i am only making about 200$ a month..

ugh come on girl.

focus !!!
grow up!!

starting now!!!

i will only have about 1200 dollars to live off of for the next three months. thats including gas, food, traveling, partying, shopping, buying things needed for the house..
shit

what did i put myself into.

ugh.

but really. it is ok for me to not work my summer after senior year right? or am i just being a dumb adolscent.. (one that cant even spell)..

its ok if it comes to like a guest right?
ha. but i am really starting to get in the habit, like money isnt everything.

money doesnt make me happy anymore.

yea its nice to have. and its necessary.
but its not life. it just makes it easier.

so i am just trying to live life right now and enjoy

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