according to some people, the most important people really, i’m too skinny.
thats not something that i am proud to hear in the least bit.
my weight does change often, but not too drastically.
but i am on the skinnier side for my height right now.. especially since i have started my gym program.
but, i kind of agree.
i think i should gain a little more weight. maybe i just need to change my diet.
this is definitely something i need to be paying more attention to.
Since I haven’t had time to go to the gym lately since I have been dealing with family, I recently purchased a yoga mat so I can at least continue to work on my core and stuff in a room.
Not too bad I figured.
Im still trying.
For the first time in my life I have been having the biggest drive to workout.
I love it.
I have a gym membership, and I started going at night. Then noticed that every time I go, at 11pm-1pm, there is the same girl working.
I like routine.
So that helps.
But I even started working out in my room just because I had nothing to do.
I wish the bike was still available. Oh well.
Finally, on my way to successss.
And, instead of tanning, I am using the lotion stuff, which actually has been working.
I am pretty happy about that as well.
november 20 i got 2 more tattoos.
think they look nice.
one is an ode to my beloved sister kirby.
it is an elephant she drew. just an outline of the head.
the other is a simple bird cage. no bird.
i like how its all coming together.
and i have lost 8 pounds in the past month, for no reason. which i am not happy with.
so i want to start gaining muscle after my surgery tomorrow. well after i am healed from that.
well.. i repierced my belly button..
now i am still working on that motivation for working on my abs.
its alot harder than i thought.
but i am tanning. ever so often.
i have taken out my belly button piercing for good..
i think thats a little bit of an improvement.
also focusing on my stomach right now…
i am letting my hair grow back, no more dying it, well for a while.
no more fake nails.
pick up running still.
this will be legit.
ok i am going to get really strict about this…
starting on monday.
thats when fall semester starts. and when i have everything else in life start.
i am going to be running, outdoor, 3 times a week. at the lest.
but i am going to attempt to do it everyday. i have it written down for everyday at least.
so we’ll see how it goes.
another thing i need to start focusing on, is presenting myself well.
i need to take PRIDE in my appearance.
it wil be the 3rd time, in a month and a half, that i will look presentable at work. makeup, lightly applied, contacts, and hair brushed.
i’m tired of people always comparing their body to mine..
people are different.
youre body IS beautiful. its your body!
and i want you to feel comfortable in it.
and i love it. anyway.
you are beautiful.
now i need to start telling [myself] all of that.
and believe it for [myself].