Be less shy

its been a month and a half.. its about time i stand up and take action..

shiit…

ugh. back to this again. i need to work on this!
though, i think it may not be shyness that i need to avoid.
i am just not very forward.
in the least bit..

hmm.. some signals would be nice though.
i dont want to be made a fool.

lately i have been very quiet. especially when in groups.
and it gets quite awkward.

they say something, like, ‘why so quiet?” and just stuff like that, and i honestly just have nothing to say.
i am more of an observer than a talking when around people i dont know, especially in groups of 3 or more.
but its much harder to explain than one may think.

so i will keep trying.
but i have been doing better than i use to be.

i think this whole loneliness phase has put me back a few steps…

less shy leslie.
two reason right now..

i am going out to find a job.. social skills leslie.
and
school starting in one week.
YOU NEED TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS.
!!! and not just the people in your classes.

go beyond that girl!!

you know what you need to do, and say, so be confident, and go for it.

i have nothing else to lose..

ahhh
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im ok with being unimpressive.

or at least i am for now.

i want to live for myself. and thats all for now.

but i dont want to become annoying…

so the shyness act is out.
and now its leslie being leslie.

just in this particular situation though…

so i’ll keep going with the flow. and hopefully it will turn out wonderfully…

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i realized what i have not been doing that i should.
the thing i need to do next.

so i am going to do it next time.
just go for it.

i am going to stop holding myself back. well i will attempt to anyways.
next time.

‘a more appropriate goal’

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yes it is.