help others

ok so the other day i was filling up my gas tank at wal mart [cause thats the only place i get get gas without paying for it, cause my mommie lets me charge it to her wal mart credit card] and i was just about to be finished fillin up, when i hear
“excuse me young lady…”
it made me smile.
“yes ma’am”
“when youre finished with that could you please show me how to use a credit card”
“of course! i will be done in just one minute”
“thank you dear”

... then as i was showing her how to use her credit card and showing her how to get gas, she explains to me that her son usually does this for her and she has never used a credit card before.
i thought that was great. first of all, an american that hasn’t always had a credit card, and second, she has a son that takes great care of his mother. [:

i felt useful that dayyyy.

So I have done a number of helping other people since my last entry… finding credit cards, giving them back…taking in a friend… donated money… cleaned… smile… teach…. thank…. apologize… and just little stuff i suppose. Still need more work on it though. There can never be too much.

yeah so I am pretty sure making out with my friend’s friend’s boyfriend, then letting him stay the night doesnt really help anyone… yeah. bad move on my part.

this goal needs to be put into action more.

I found a credit card in the parking lot. And being the good person I am, I called the bank, gave them my number, and they said the carholder would call me. And she did. And she got her credit card back, and she was going out of town so I “saved her” she said.
So that was a nice feeling. Knowing I relived someone of some stress. So yeah.
Good job Leslie.

So I have officially decided that I am going to be a counslor[.if I can spell it..]. and they help people all the time.
And I think that that is just amazing.
Maybe at like a highschool or something..? maybe not.
I havent really decided that much yet. But yeah.

So I will be helping people for a living. Amazing. My life will be great.

I have the opportunity on thursday of next week.. but i am not sure of i am going because of the other people that are going. i really dont think that they are going for the same reason i want to go, and it would be crazy, but i dont know. i am going to talk to williams about it. hmm. i shall see.
i know i will regret not going, but i really dont know what will happen if i go.. i dont know, we will see.

When I am older, and have my own money, and dont own any debts to anyone, I am going to help feed the children, like on that feed the children infomercial.
Yeah.
Thats what I want to do.

Help other help themselves.

Ha, not I dont roll like that.

But those were some good times I must say.

Then I will have died happy.

Thats all I want in life.. to be able to help people.

Simple.

I am constantly putting myself out to help others.
And I really dont mind helping people, I live for it, I love doing it.
I will seriously help people in whatever ways they need it. I have gotten into so much trouble before, trying to help someone out. But it was worth it. I feel good when I help people out.

But I hate it when I do something for someone, and in return I got absolutely nothing. Its not that I expect to get something after helping someone out, that not why I enjoy doing it, its just that I want to be respected some what for helping them.

Ex: My cousin that lives with us. She is 27 years old, has 2 kids, only has custudy of her youngest though, so he lives with us too. And she has had a rough life, thats one of the reasons she is living with us, but she doesnt try to make her life any better.
Last night I babysat for her when she went to work, now I dont ask to be paid for that because I treat her how I would treat my sisters and their kids so I do it just to help them out and such, but when she doesnt come home until noon today, and doesnt call or anything, and then doesnt even thank me for feeding her kid, and taking care of him better than she takes care of him, yeah I do get pretty pissed off. And I hate when people do that kind of stuff to me when I help them out.

I dont know, but whatever.
I really do enjoy helping people out, even if it puts me out. All I ask in return is a thank you.

But no matter what, I will continue helping.