Beat my depression

I think I’m out of the woods. Now crying only happens once in a while, and for a reason, instead of every day ruminating about my ex. However, I am going to continue with the St. John’s Wort for the near future, until I feel on less shaky ground about work and money.

But I’ll wait a week or so before I call it really beaten. Sometimes I’m still sad but it’s been quite a while since I cried. I seem to have a more realistic perception of the situation that caused this in the first place, but I could be announcing that prematurely.

Now I have overscheduled myself so much though, that I am constantly stressed out, just thinking about it. In two weeks I will have FOUR part-time jobs. I’m worried that I’m assigning too much importance and loyalty to the one that ought to be lowest priority.

I expect a little backsliding here and there but I feel so much more like myself!

I am feeling LOTS better and I still don’t know if it’s just nature running its course or if it’s the St. John’s Wort, but I’m definitely scared to stop taking it.

It was bad! I wasn’t myself.

It’s either really supportive and wonderful or just a fantastic placebo, but at least I’m not crying every day now. That’s a first in five months.