weigh 130 pounds

I have been hiding my body for the last 15 years: gradually, but inexorably, I have seen my silhouette deforming under layers of fat. And although I wanted to slim down, I just could not: I would pounce on food like some famished animal, and eat so quickly I would not even realize that I was over-eating. And the pounds piled up. And the fatter I became, the more I ate. I was stuck in this loop from hell.
Then, a month ago, the revelation. I wasn’t a greedy disgusting fat person, I was (am) someone dealing with serious past traumas, and my binge eating is only a way of coping with my issues.
I am now getting help, to both learn how to accept and leave the trauma behind and to learn how to control my eating disorder.
I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel, I finally start to believe that I can slim down to 130 pounds: it is not anymore the impossible dream of a obese woman, it’s now an achievable goal.